Listening to: Night and Day - DeLovely OST
Feeling: Speechless
Watched Samara yesterday in Starlight Cinema. It was pretty crappy. Oh well, it was free so guess was there for the fun and laughter. Tried out the Nokia color photo printing that they had there and it was pretty good. Me and Sarah N took a picture that was printed out for us in 4R size, still clear. No complains about that phone except for the size. Think that was the only highlight of the night.
Another one of those perks that we get for being freebie-hos.
Was thinking aloud then about how we have to beg friends to come for the freebie events that we have and sometimes it is pretty annoying. Sarah N agrees as she gets the same problem. Oh well... friends, can't live with them, can't live without them... =_=;
Thursday, July 07, 2005
Wednesday, July 06, 2005
Syok Sendiri
Listening to: More Fish Songs
Feeling: The Morning Breath
'Apakah itu syok sendiri? Ia adalah suatu keadaan dimana anda berasa gembira kerana teringat sesuatu perkara akan berlaku atau sudah berlaku tetapi sebenarnya tidak pernah terjadi.
Syok sendiri juga boleh di terangkan dengan keadaan dimana seseorang tersalah anggap sendiri tersangat cantik. Sebagai contoh, Gigi selalu bermimpi dia seorang perempuan yang tercantik. Oleh itu, dia syok sendiri. Contoh-contoh yang lain juga termasuk keadaan dimana saya teringat ada seorang yang ingin memikat saya, dimana Sarah N teringat nak memanggil sayangnya yang tersayang melancong dan dimana Gem nak mengajak sayangnya menonton wayang. Kanak-kanak, itulah syok sendiri.
Di dalam keadaan syok sendiri, adalah normal jikalau anda terasa tidak tenteram ataupun gembira. Tetapi apabila perasaan syok sendiri itu beredar, seseorang akan berasa kecewa ataupun sedih. Itulah biasa.
Oleh itu, janganlah mempunyai perasaan syok sendiri kanak-kanak. Syok sendiri membawa maut. Moral cerita ini adalah janganlah perasan sangat, adohai kanak-kanak...
Feeling: The Morning Breath
'Apakah itu syok sendiri? Ia adalah suatu keadaan dimana anda berasa gembira kerana teringat sesuatu perkara akan berlaku atau sudah berlaku tetapi sebenarnya tidak pernah terjadi.
Syok sendiri juga boleh di terangkan dengan keadaan dimana seseorang tersalah anggap sendiri tersangat cantik. Sebagai contoh, Gigi selalu bermimpi dia seorang perempuan yang tercantik. Oleh itu, dia syok sendiri. Contoh-contoh yang lain juga termasuk keadaan dimana saya teringat ada seorang yang ingin memikat saya, dimana Sarah N teringat nak memanggil sayangnya yang tersayang melancong dan dimana Gem nak mengajak sayangnya menonton wayang. Kanak-kanak, itulah syok sendiri.
Di dalam keadaan syok sendiri, adalah normal jikalau anda terasa tidak tenteram ataupun gembira. Tetapi apabila perasaan syok sendiri itu beredar, seseorang akan berasa kecewa ataupun sedih. Itulah biasa.
Oleh itu, janganlah mempunyai perasaan syok sendiri kanak-kanak. Syok sendiri membawa maut. Moral cerita ini adalah janganlah perasan sangat, adohai kanak-kanak...
Tuesday, July 05, 2005
'No'
Listening to: Voices in my head interlaced with Fish Songs
Feeling: More and more frustrated. Am I too annoying?
"No, you can't go out"
"No, I don't think so we'll hire you"
"No, I don't think you're what we're looking for"
"No, I don't think that I'm coming"
"No, I don't want to have anything to do with you"
"No, I don't think I can accept you for what you are"
"No, it's not you.. it's me"
"No, you go ahead"
"No, I won't listen"
"No, you're wrong"
"NO! How many times do I need to tell you that?"
"NO! Stop bothering me, which part of NO don't you understand?"
"no no no no no no no no no no no no no no no no no no no no no no no no no no no"
When is someone going to say yes?
Feeling: More and more frustrated. Am I too annoying?
"No, you can't go out"
"No, I don't think so we'll hire you"
"No, I don't think you're what we're looking for"
"No, I don't think that I'm coming"
"No, I don't want to have anything to do with you"
"No, I don't think I can accept you for what you are"
"No, it's not you.. it's me"
"No, you go ahead"
"No, I won't listen"
"No, you're wrong"
"NO! How many times do I need to tell you that?"
"NO! Stop bothering me, which part of NO don't you understand?"
"no no no no no no no no no no no no no no no no no no no no no no no no no no no"
When is someone going to say yes?
'We need to talk'
Listening to: Fish Songs
Feeling: Like the world is about to end
'We need to talk'
"Why?'
'Something is wrong. I can sense it'
"Nothing's wrong.. Everything's fine!"
'We don't talk like we used to anymore'
"That's because I need more time to adjust to the change"
'..... We kept in touch even when I was away. '
"It's different.."
'How different?'
"You’re different”
‘I think there is something that I need to say but might hurt you’
“What?”
'I want you to know that we are just friends'
“.... OK”
"*Silence*"
'*Silence*'
"*laughs* I know that we were just friends all along. Why are you telling me something that I already know?"
‘I hope you understand’
“I’ve always understood. Hey I need to go, my mum’s calling me to pick my sister up. Talk to you later!!”
‘OK… take care. Nights and sweet dreams’
“You too.. Hugz! Nights and sweet dreams”
Feeling: Like the world is about to end
'We need to talk'
"Why?'
'Something is wrong. I can sense it'
"Nothing's wrong.. Everything's fine!"
'We don't talk like we used to anymore'
"That's because I need more time to adjust to the change"
'..... We kept in touch even when I was away. '
"It's different.."
'How different?'
"You’re different”
‘I think there is something that I need to say but might hurt you’
“What?”
'I want you to know that we are just friends'
“.... OK”
"*Silence*"
'*Silence*'
"*laughs* I know that we were just friends all along. Why are you telling me something that I already know?"
‘I hope you understand’
“I’ve always understood. Hey I need to go, my mum’s calling me to pick my sister up. Talk to you later!!”
‘OK… take care. Nights and sweet dreams’
“You too.. Hugz! Nights and sweet dreams”
Monday, July 04, 2005
Serious Matters
Listening to: The same Winter Sonata song
Feeling: More and more like a blog.. I mean, block T-T
Was browsing through Thro192's blog *didn't mean to stalk but I was bored* and I just realized that this guy had been a soldier *me thinks.. Didn't have time to go tru all his posts*. O.o hmm.. I feel worst now.. My posts are usually bitchings about work, life and love life *or the lack of it*. So much more to this life than just that. I try to tell myself that everyday, but most of the time, by the time the clock hits 12pm, it is all about me all over again. hmm... More to life.. What's in it for me?
I should be writing fluffy chic lits.
Feeling: More and more like a blog.. I mean, block T-T
Was browsing through Thro192's blog *didn't mean to stalk but I was bored* and I just realized that this guy had been a soldier *me thinks.. Didn't have time to go tru all his posts*. O.o hmm.. I feel worst now.. My posts are usually bitchings about work, life and love life *or the lack of it*. So much more to this life than just that. I try to tell myself that everyday, but most of the time, by the time the clock hits 12pm, it is all about me all over again. hmm... More to life.. What's in it for me?
I should be writing fluffy chic lits.
Writer's Blog.. UH, I mean writer's block!
Listening to: One of the songs from Winter Sonata
Feeling: Like a block
Having a huge writer's block right now. Can't really think of anything to write for the past few days. Can't really understand why because I could come up with articles within a day usually but for the past month, feel as though God is playing a joke on me. Rather blog now than to finish off my work.
Maybe one day when someone asks me something I would just answer them, 'duhhhh'. I am getting very paranoid now.. Very very... Running out of brain juices
Feeling: Like a block
Having a huge writer's block right now. Can't really think of anything to write for the past few days. Can't really understand why because I could come up with articles within a day usually but for the past month, feel as though God is playing a joke on me. Rather blog now than to finish off my work.
Maybe one day when someone asks me something I would just answer them, 'duhhhh'. I am getting very paranoid now.. Very very... Running out of brain juices
Craps
Listening to: Fish Leong, AGAIN~
Feeling: A little bit more crazier than yesterday
AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH. I've lost my previous post. Stupid blogger! I'm going fer a smoke. And buy some oil laden fried bananas.. And die of boredom.
Crying is good, crying is good, crying is good. Monday makes me go crazy
Feeling: A little bit more crazier than yesterday
AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH. I've lost my previous post. Stupid blogger! I'm going fer a smoke. And buy some oil laden fried bananas.. And die of boredom.
Crying is good, crying is good, crying is good. Monday makes me go crazy
Sunday, July 03, 2005
Beautiful Disaster
Listening to: Fish Leong - Fly Away
Feeling: Tired, sad and fat
Had a girl's night at my place because we were bored and me, Sarah N and Gigi all wanted to have a good cry. So, drove out, sent Sarah N back home to get her clothes, pick GG up and of course, load up on the carbo, fat laden and salt infested food. Bought RM30 over bucks worth of junkfood and ciggies... T.T NoOooooOOO
Agenda of the Night
The 4years and 11months curse
2 nights ago after meeting up, these immortal words suddenly popped up into my mind, 'Yi Hwa, the 4years and 11months curse is over. You are now starting anew.' and I sms-ed Sarah N. She said 'it is great that you are now starting to unload your burden' Great words from a wise sage. Little did I know that I can't really lie to myself. Eventhough, yes I do think that it is now time to move on, but why do I still cry whenever I hear 'Wei Wo Hao'?
The Great PK and GG divide
I absolutely have no idea on what the hell is going on between both of them.. We all need to let go one in one point of our lives.. Guess I should tell myself that first.
The Fish Songs
Wonderful songs from Fish Leong was the first to make me cry. *Sniff*
Men who are assholes
GG said,' I've read this from 'He's just not that into you', the conclusion was that 'You've already got one asshole, why do you need another one?' The 3 musketeers laughed. Hysterically. Some men are assholes. Sarah N's target happens to be a huge one. He had hurt her so badly, she is just suffering in silence. Sometimes I wish I could just beat the shit out of him..
Men who you have confessed to but is still treating you so nicely you just want to jump off KLCC Twin Towers and die
SD6 treats me like a princess... Gigi said that it is most prolly because he feels guilty and wants to treat me nicer because he don't want to hurt me. Sarah N says she envies me and said 'Wouldn't it be good if he would pretend to be mine for a day eventhough I know it is not. I just want to feel his hands in mine and I want to know how it feels like to hold the hand of the person you love. Is it sweet? Is it warm?' I envied her because I thought it would be much easier if me and SD6 have no connections whatsoever. I could just forget him... Didn't work.
What is the feeling of...?
- hugging someone you love?
Me: bitter.. tinged with sweetness..
Sarah N: *hmmmmi*
Gigi: ...you do not want to let go, you want to stay there forever...*spaces out*
- making love with someone you love?
Me: *silence*
Sarah N: *toodedaaa*
Gigi: It is very sensual, different from just having a fuck. It is not about the physical feeling. It is about the emotional fulfillment. It feels damn good.
Me and Sarah N: *sweatdrops*
Came to a conclusion finally that we actually enjoy the pain that it brings. I have to agree that I do have an urge to keep the feeling. Gigi agrees... Maybe pain is good... I wish I have more yung chi..
Feeling: Tired, sad and fat
Had a girl's night at my place because we were bored and me, Sarah N and Gigi all wanted to have a good cry. So, drove out, sent Sarah N back home to get her clothes, pick GG up and of course, load up on the carbo, fat laden and salt infested food. Bought RM30 over bucks worth of junkfood and ciggies... T.T NoOooooOOO
Agenda of the Night
The 4years and 11months curse
2 nights ago after meeting up, these immortal words suddenly popped up into my mind, 'Yi Hwa, the 4years and 11months curse is over. You are now starting anew.' and I sms-ed Sarah N. She said 'it is great that you are now starting to unload your burden' Great words from a wise sage. Little did I know that I can't really lie to myself. Eventhough, yes I do think that it is now time to move on, but why do I still cry whenever I hear 'Wei Wo Hao'?
The Great PK and GG divide
I absolutely have no idea on what the hell is going on between both of them.. We all need to let go one in one point of our lives.. Guess I should tell myself that first.
The Fish Songs
Wonderful songs from Fish Leong was the first to make me cry. *Sniff*
Men who are assholes
GG said,' I've read this from 'He's just not that into you', the conclusion was that 'You've already got one asshole, why do you need another one?' The 3 musketeers laughed. Hysterically. Some men are assholes. Sarah N's target happens to be a huge one. He had hurt her so badly, she is just suffering in silence. Sometimes I wish I could just beat the shit out of him..
Men who you have confessed to but is still treating you so nicely you just want to jump off KLCC Twin Towers and die
SD6 treats me like a princess... Gigi said that it is most prolly because he feels guilty and wants to treat me nicer because he don't want to hurt me. Sarah N says she envies me and said 'Wouldn't it be good if he would pretend to be mine for a day eventhough I know it is not. I just want to feel his hands in mine and I want to know how it feels like to hold the hand of the person you love. Is it sweet? Is it warm?' I envied her because I thought it would be much easier if me and SD6 have no connections whatsoever. I could just forget him... Didn't work.
What is the feeling of...?
- holding hands with someone you love?
Me: *shrugs*
Sarah N: *shrugs*
Gigi: You'd feel like as though you do not want to let go, that you're protected and warm. It's a good feeling...
Me and Sarah N: *Stars in eyes*
- hugging someone you love?
Me: bitter.. tinged with sweetness..
Sarah N: *hmmmmi*
Gigi: ...you do not want to let go, you want to stay there forever...*spaces out*
- making love with someone you love?
Me: *silence*
Sarah N: *toodedaaa*
Gigi: It is very sensual, different from just having a fuck. It is not about the physical feeling. It is about the emotional fulfillment. It feels damn good.
Me and Sarah N: *sweatdrops*
Came to a conclusion finally that we actually enjoy the pain that it brings. I have to agree that I do have an urge to keep the feeling. Gigi agrees... Maybe pain is good... I wish I have more yung chi..
Friday, July 01, 2005
Delight!
Listening to: AK - Say you love me
Feeling: Full
Came back from a long meeting that involves planning to shoot more sexy pictures to find this
on my desk.. turned out that Mabs had a shoot and she was using these as props. Was feeling hungry then so I ate it. Didn't care if it was icki-fied or what.. just makan only. But it was so pretty and it came with a sweet note :p
Hi Pinkity!
Have a cupcake it's super sweet like you! Missing ya!
From the other side of the office - Mable
Mabs made my after noon, along with these few other people, ThrO and Chin Yew... because they're readers of this blog... OMFG. I have an audience. =_=; *sudden revelation*
Feeling: Full
Came back from a long meeting that involves planning to shoot more sexy pictures to find this
on my desk.. turned out that Mabs had a shoot and she was using these as props. Was feeling hungry then so I ate it. Didn't care if it was icki-fied or what.. just makan only. But it was so pretty and it came with a sweet note :pHi Pinkity!
Have a cupcake it's super sweet like you! Missing ya!
From the other side of the office - Mable
Mabs made my after noon, along with these few other people, ThrO and Chin Yew... because they're readers of this blog... OMFG. I have an audience. =_=; *sudden revelation*
LOL moment
Listening to: White noise
Feeling: LOL-ing
Was surfing the net aimlessly again during lunchtime and found this gem. The trailer for this show named The 40 year old Virgin. Ok.. fine, have to admit that the title got the best of me but the trailer looks good. Hehe
http://www.apple.com/trailers/universal/the_40_year_old_virgin.html
Enjoy...
Feeling: LOL-ing
Was surfing the net aimlessly again during lunchtime and found this gem. The trailer for this show named The 40 year old Virgin. Ok.. fine, have to admit that the title got the best of me but the trailer looks good. Hehe
http://www.apple.com/trailers/universal/the_40_year_old_virgin.html
Enjoy...
Hie Readers
Yesterday I've recieved an email from Blogger that says I've got a new comment on one of my posts. I thought, 'Wahey!!! Gigi's replied..' But.. it's this person by the name of Chin Yew. (I thinks). Hmm... He says
Just to let you know
that I am reading you
Does that sound like a stalker thing? Hehe.. Well Chin Yew if by this point you still have not realized what you've gotten yourself into, you're my first real reader.. Welcome the bitch side..
Just to let you know
that I am reading you
Does that sound like a stalker thing? Hehe.. Well Chin Yew if by this point you still have not realized what you've gotten yourself into, you're my first real reader.. Welcome the bitch side..
Weird.. dreams?
Listening to: Fish Leong - Wei Wo Hao
Feeling: Blank and confused, with husky voice
So this is the aftermath of a loud and pretty long karaoke session. Husky voice. Don't mind it, but just wish that the freaky dream I had yesterday would go away. Well.... Here goes nothing
Freaky Dream
*OK, G don't laugh cause it's about Jay. *
Dreamt that a bunch of us went to yamcha in this place we have not been to before.. and we saw him there yamcha-ing with a bunch of friends of his as well.. He saw us and approached us, and asked me to come with him to say hie to his friends. *at this point I was like 'what the fuck for?'* And so, I went. He held my waist *alot of that to hold on to..* and I said 'Don't do that! People might misunderstand!' and I felt *freaking hell* that I was blushing =_=;
As we reached the table, I could hear
Friends: *Desas Desus* Er.. so 'tai kau' (big piece T.T, I have a crappy ability to degrade myself even in my dreams.. shit)
Me: *thinks* Fuck they look like the Mafia. Don't sell me to Thailand!!!
Him: Hey guys, this is the girl I've been talking about
Me: Hie *pops a cheery smile*
Friends: *in unison* Hie.
Me: *felt like I've died and went to heaven* he talks about me in front of his friends?
Alarm Clock: Ringgggg *OK, my alarm ringtone is Mariah Carey's It's like that.. So Mariah woke me up. Damn you Mariah!!!*
Sigh... crap. I think I am falling into the shit pits of hell. *Cries like a drama queen that I am*
Feeling: Blank and confused, with husky voice
So this is the aftermath of a loud and pretty long karaoke session. Husky voice. Don't mind it, but just wish that the freaky dream I had yesterday would go away. Well.... Here goes nothing
Freaky Dream
*OK, G don't laugh cause it's about Jay. *
Dreamt that a bunch of us went to yamcha in this place we have not been to before.. and we saw him there yamcha-ing with a bunch of friends of his as well.. He saw us and approached us, and asked me to come with him to say hie to his friends. *at this point I was like 'what the fuck for?'* And so, I went. He held my waist *alot of that to hold on to..* and I said 'Don't do that! People might misunderstand!' and I felt *freaking hell* that I was blushing =_=;
As we reached the table, I could hear
Friends: *Desas Desus* Er.. so 'tai kau' (big piece T.T, I have a crappy ability to degrade myself even in my dreams.. shit)
Me: *thinks* Fuck they look like the Mafia. Don't sell me to Thailand!!!
Him: Hey guys, this is the girl I've been talking about
Me: Hie *pops a cheery smile*
Friends: *in unison* Hie.
Me: *felt like I've died and went to heaven* he talks about me in front of his friends?
Alarm Clock: Ringgggg *OK, my alarm ringtone is Mariah Carey's It's like that.. So Mariah woke me up. Damn you Mariah!!!*
Sigh... crap. I think I am falling into the shit pits of hell. *Cries like a drama queen that I am*
Thursday, June 30, 2005
Random Photos
Listening to: Fish Leong - Bu shiang suei
Was at Gigi's place a week or two ago and we were playing with her hamsters when we took this picture of the cuties.. Don't you think that they look like they're flying?
Heyah!!! I'm coming back at cya!
And there was this fateful Saturday morning when Jin woke me up to go Para Para in Midvalley. Had no food, so stopped by our local Dunkin Donuts. I had Strawberry Frosted ones!!! Yums~
Don't you just wanna bite into that?
And there was also one Friday afternoon when Arihito fetched me to Mid Valley for food.. And he gave me this!!! All wrapped by himself.. With 3D details *sweatdrops* scary.. never thought that he would tie his own shoelaces even.. Hmm.. can't resist but to take a picture of it..
It is Mr. Octopus on Fire which I have henceforth christened as Oku San
I am obviously very bored and I have more pictures... =_=;
My desk at work. Oku-san and Piccu-chan at the top. :p
More pictures to come.. I LOVE photobucket!!
Was at Gigi's place a week or two ago and we were playing with her hamsters when we took this picture of the cuties.. Don't you think that they look like they're flying?
Heyah!!! I'm coming back at cya!
And there was this fateful Saturday morning when Jin woke me up to go Para Para in Midvalley. Had no food, so stopped by our local Dunkin Donuts. I had Strawberry Frosted ones!!! Yums~
Don't you just wanna bite into that?
And there was also one Friday afternoon when Arihito fetched me to Mid Valley for food.. And he gave me this!!! All wrapped by himself.. With 3D details *sweatdrops* scary.. never thought that he would tie his own shoelaces even.. Hmm.. can't resist but to take a picture of it..
It is Mr. Octopus on Fire which I have henceforth christened as Oku San
I am obviously very bored and I have more pictures... =_=;
My desk at work. Oku-san and Piccu-chan at the top. :p
More pictures to come.. I LOVE photobucket!!
Love is...
Listening to: Fish Leong - Wo Shi Huan
Feeling: Like I need a smoke desperately
After lunch, feeling supremely contented and full. Need a smoke but Hitler's there. So made a U-Turn to get my butt up here. Will have to wait till he gets off, so meanwhile, to keep me in a happier mood, here are some stuff that I have recieved via email. Really, really sweet, naive and innocent. Why can't adults just be like that? Sigh...
What does Love mean?
A group of professional people posed this question to a group of 4 to 8year-olds, "What does love mean?" The answers they got were broader and deeper than anyone could have imagined. See what you think:
"When my grandmother got arthritis, she couldn't bend overand paint her toenails anymore. So my grandfather does it for her all the time, even when his hands got arthritis too. That's love."
Rebecca - age 8
"When someone loves you, the way they say your name is different. Youjust know that your name is safe in their mouth."
Billy - age 4
"Love is when a girl puts on perfume and a boy puts onshaving cologne and they go out and smell each other."
Karl - age 5
"Love is when you go out to eat and give somebody most of your French fries without making them give you any of theirs."
Chrissy - age 6
"Love is what makes you smile when you're tired."
Terri - age 4
"Love is when my mommy makes coffee for my daddy and she takes a sip before giving it to him, to make sure the taste is OK."
Danny - age 7
"Love is when you kiss all the time. Then when you get tiredof kissing, you still want to be together and you talk more. My Mommyand Daddy are like that."
Emily - age 8
"Love is what's in the room with you at Christmas if you stop openingpresents and listen."
Bobby - age 7 (Wow!)
"If you want to learn to love better, you should start witha friend who you hate,"
Nikka - age 6 (we need a few million more Nikka's on this planet)
"Love is when you tell a guy you like his shirt, then he wears it everyday."
Noelle - age 7
"Love is like a little old woman and a little old man who are still friends even after they know each other so well."
Tommy - age 6
"During my piano recital, I was on a stage and I was scared.I looked at all the people watching me and saw my daddy waving and smiling. He was the only one doing that. I wasn't scared anymore."
Cindy - age 8
"My mommy loves me more than anybody You don't see anyone else kissing me to sleep at night."
Clare - age 6
"Love is when Mommy gives Daddy the best piece of chicken."
Elaine-age 5
"Love is when Mommy sees Daddy smelly and sweaty and stillsays he is handsomer than Robert Redford."
Chris - age 7
"Love is when your puppy licks your face even after you left him aloneall day."
Mary Ann - age 4
"I know my older sister loves me because she gives me all her oldclothes and has to go out and buy new ones."
Lauren - age 4
"When you love somebody, your eyelashes go up and down and little stars come out of you." (what an imagination)
Karen - age 7
"You really shouldn't say 'I love you' unless you mean it.But if you mean it, you should say it a lot. People forget."
Jessica - age 8
And the final one -- Author and lecturer Leo Buscaglia once talked abouta contest he was asked to judge. The purpose of the contest was to findthe most caring child.
The winner was a four year old child whose next door neighbor was anelderly gentleman who had recently lost his wife. Upon seeing the mancry, the little boy went into the old gentleman's yard, climbed onto his lap, and just sat there. When his Mother asked what he had said to theneighbor, the little boy said, "Nothing, I just helped him cry"
If only love can be as simple....
Feeling: Like I need a smoke desperately
After lunch, feeling supremely contented and full. Need a smoke but Hitler's there. So made a U-Turn to get my butt up here. Will have to wait till he gets off, so meanwhile, to keep me in a happier mood, here are some stuff that I have recieved via email. Really, really sweet, naive and innocent. Why can't adults just be like that? Sigh...
What does Love mean?
A group of professional people posed this question to a group of 4 to 8year-olds, "What does love mean?" The answers they got were broader and deeper than anyone could have imagined. See what you think:
"When my grandmother got arthritis, she couldn't bend overand paint her toenails anymore. So my grandfather does it for her all the time, even when his hands got arthritis too. That's love."
Rebecca - age 8
"When someone loves you, the way they say your name is different. Youjust know that your name is safe in their mouth."
Billy - age 4
"Love is when a girl puts on perfume and a boy puts onshaving cologne and they go out and smell each other."
Karl - age 5
"Love is when you go out to eat and give somebody most of your French fries without making them give you any of theirs."
Chrissy - age 6
"Love is what makes you smile when you're tired."
Terri - age 4
"Love is when my mommy makes coffee for my daddy and she takes a sip before giving it to him, to make sure the taste is OK."
Danny - age 7
"Love is when you kiss all the time. Then when you get tiredof kissing, you still want to be together and you talk more. My Mommyand Daddy are like that."
Emily - age 8
"Love is what's in the room with you at Christmas if you stop openingpresents and listen."
Bobby - age 7 (Wow!)
"If you want to learn to love better, you should start witha friend who you hate,"
Nikka - age 6 (we need a few million more Nikka's on this planet)
"Love is when you tell a guy you like his shirt, then he wears it everyday."
Noelle - age 7
"Love is like a little old woman and a little old man who are still friends even after they know each other so well."
Tommy - age 6
"During my piano recital, I was on a stage and I was scared.I looked at all the people watching me and saw my daddy waving and smiling. He was the only one doing that. I wasn't scared anymore."
Cindy - age 8
"My mommy loves me more than anybody You don't see anyone else kissing me to sleep at night."
Clare - age 6
"Love is when Mommy gives Daddy the best piece of chicken."
Elaine-age 5
"Love is when Mommy sees Daddy smelly and sweaty and stillsays he is handsomer than Robert Redford."
Chris - age 7
"Love is when your puppy licks your face even after you left him aloneall day."
Mary Ann - age 4
"I know my older sister loves me because she gives me all her oldclothes and has to go out and buy new ones."
Lauren - age 4
"When you love somebody, your eyelashes go up and down and little stars come out of you." (what an imagination)
Karen - age 7
"You really shouldn't say 'I love you' unless you mean it.But if you mean it, you should say it a lot. People forget."
Jessica - age 8
And the final one -- Author and lecturer Leo Buscaglia once talked abouta contest he was asked to judge. The purpose of the contest was to findthe most caring child.
The winner was a four year old child whose next door neighbor was anelderly gentleman who had recently lost his wife. Upon seeing the mancry, the little boy went into the old gentleman's yard, climbed onto his lap, and just sat there. When his Mother asked what he had said to theneighbor, the little boy said, "Nothing, I just helped him cry"
If only love can be as simple....
Wednesday, June 29, 2005
Biiiiiiiittttchiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiinnnnnnnnnnnnnnggggggggs
Spirits broken and being in doubt with myself.
Hate this feeling because when I feel this way, I do not feel like I want to work anymore. Had a talk with Mich and she was kinda saying that it was right for Hitler to act that way because he IS the boss. Don’t feel like talking to her after that because of the clash of thoughts and perspective. All I wanted her to understand is that, doesn’t matter if he’s the boss or not he should still have that responsibility of sharing his thoughts and actions with us. If not, how would he expect us to understand the things that he has to go through? All I see is hypocrisy and from what I see all he wants is power.
All I wanted was feedback and respect. He told her that I walked away, that is why he screamed at me. But what he had also forget to mention is that he started screaming at me before I walked away. That was so unfair. As usual, she sided him. Not that I want her side, but at least understand….
Hate this feeling because when I feel this way, I do not feel like I want to work anymore. Had a talk with Mich and she was kinda saying that it was right for Hitler to act that way because he IS the boss. Don’t feel like talking to her after that because of the clash of thoughts and perspective. All I wanted her to understand is that, doesn’t matter if he’s the boss or not he should still have that responsibility of sharing his thoughts and actions with us. If not, how would he expect us to understand the things that he has to go through? All I see is hypocrisy and from what I see all he wants is power.
All I wanted was feedback and respect. He told her that I walked away, that is why he screamed at me. But what he had also forget to mention is that he started screaming at me before I walked away. That was so unfair. As usual, she sided him. Not that I want her side, but at least understand….
Tuesday, June 28, 2005
Post Lunch Lazyness
Listening to: Fish Leong - Ting Bu Dao
Feeling: Xtremely Full and Funky in the Stomach Sector (whatever that means)
Had just finished lunch and is now having post lunch lazyness. Supposed to finish up one of the articles that I was supposed to write. Supposed being the operative word, I am super procrastinating.
Yes, I am super high as well.. It feels good. Yeah.. Must be the new picture I placed on my desk to remind myself that I do have friends outside werk. Hehe.. Bless you guys. Just another mindless I-am-procrastinating-but-trying-to-look-busy mode. Maybe more laterz
Feeling: Xtremely Full and Funky in the Stomach Sector (whatever that means)
Had just finished lunch and is now having post lunch lazyness. Supposed to finish up one of the articles that I was supposed to write. Supposed being the operative word, I am super procrastinating.
Yes, I am super high as well.. It feels good. Yeah.. Must be the new picture I placed on my desk to remind myself that I do have friends outside werk. Hehe.. Bless you guys. Just another mindless I-am-procrastinating-but-trying-to-look-busy mode. Maybe more laterz
Monday, June 27, 2005
Funny, what a SMS...
Listening to: Fish Leong - Rainbow
Feeling: Like a crabby old woman
A funny SMS came today.
'In appreciation of your International SMS usage we would like to remind you that International SMS rates are staying at only 20sen per SMS for good! SMS away!'
HOHOHO.. too bad Maxis. I have no one to sms no more.
Feeling: Like a crabby old woman
A funny SMS came today.
'In appreciation of your International SMS usage we would like to remind you that International SMS rates are staying at only 20sen per SMS for good! SMS away!'
HOHOHO.. too bad Maxis. I have no one to sms no more.
Sunday, June 26, 2005
A nice day which turned out to be horrible
Listening to: Fish Leong - Wo Shi Huan
Feeling: Warm!
Another lazy Saturday, woken up by Kay at the most ungodly hour, 12.30pm. One should have a rule about not waking up till 1pm on the weekend :p. Very uneventful. Was sleeping the whole day. I am such a pig.
Dreading to go back to work on Monday because of something that happened on Friday.
Had a shouting match with the Hitler on Friday... *Who is a bitch*.. Can't imagine my boss shouting at me for the most trivial of all trivial matters. He walks in late for my photo shoot (and he told me that he will bring props for me, and also the fact that he wants to use his idea and didn't tell me, walks in and just basically told me that what I had done for the past hour is useless), kills off my idea ("what you're doing is nothing anyway") and when I wanted to go for lunch, he asks me, "Aren't you having a photo shoot?". I was so pissed. And he has got the gall to tell me after saying that 'you better go rather than stay here and sulk'. I was at this point clenching my fist, willing myself not to punch him in the balls. It took some willpower.
And so I walked off, to collect my cigs and ask Jay for a smoke. He says wait for 5 mins, so I walked off for a smoke first. As I reached the ground floor and my hands were just about to hold the door knob to open the door, Hitler (who is standing at the 1st floor stair landing) called down at me
Hitler:'What time are you coming back?"
Me: I am gonna go have a quick one, at the pantry...
Hitler: *half shouting* Why are you so like that today? Why are you so agitated?
Me: What do you mean?
Hitler: *cuts me off and shouting* WHAT'S WRONG WITH YOU? ALL I'M ASKING IS WHAT TIME YOU'RE COMING BACK. WHAT'S SO HARD WITH THAT?
Me: Look asshole, *ok, the asshole part I've censored* why are you shouting like a child?
Hitler: IT'S BECAUSE YOU'RE ACTING LIKE ONE..
Me: *walks off*
Hitler: COME BACK HERE
Me: *imagines a fighting scene, a gong sounds and some deep manly voice says 'ROUND 1' and walks back in* I'll be back in half an hour *walks out of the door.... and cries*
I kept replaying the scene in my head and I hate it. Hate it for the fact that I have not done anything wrong and he had wrongly yelled at me. I can imagine the better part of the office had heard his part of the yelling match. And for those who had heard him would think that I have done something very wrong for him to yell at me like that.
Which I hate because he had always potrayed himself as a righteous person. Always helping people out and always saying the right things when actually he is a spiteful gay who thinks that thinks that the world owes him. He thinks everytime someone tells him something that is not right about him, it is a personal attack. When I told him after he said 'better go than to stay here and sulk' that if he wants to change the styling for that particular shoot he should have just smsed me or call me to say that he is late and just hold the shoot. Then I wouldn't be doing something useless and wasted the photographer's time and my time. Stupidasshole. Maybe being screwed at the back made him stupid. And a hypocrite. And a fucker. And a dumbass... UGH.. I can so fill the whole page with names for him. But I won't because I wouldn't stoop as low as he did.
So after walking out of the door, I called Sarah N to come down because we were supposed to have lunch together. Jay walks in and saw me crying and he asked why. Told him the whole story, Sarah N walks in, had to repeat the story, which was punctuated with lots of sniff, tears and mucus. After Jay left, continued talking to Sarah N and at one point cars drove past that little corner.
Hitler was in one of them and he saw me crying, he actually came down to confront me and it went like this:
Hitler: DO NOT CRY. Whatever it is, just go on with your intended shoot. Leave my stuff at the side and I will collect it later.
Me: You do not understand don't you? I am NOT upset about how the shoot was done! It is...
Hitler: *cutting me off once again* We will talk about this in our private session.
Me: *Whatever*
See how efficient this boss is to me? I am really angry at the fact that it is because of him that our deadlines are not met and he would still ask if we could close the mag by end of this week when he himself had not done his part. Oh man.. I think I should talking about him because the more I think about his Chinese face the more I want to go to where he stays and pour salt and sugar into his fuel tank. Or maybe put some rubber marks on his face.. UGh.. stop! If not I think my blood pressure will rise.
Sniff... To bed I guess, Sungai Wang tomorrow... I need retail therapy.
Feeling: Warm!
Another lazy Saturday, woken up by Kay at the most ungodly hour, 12.30pm. One should have a rule about not waking up till 1pm on the weekend :p. Very uneventful. Was sleeping the whole day. I am such a pig.
Dreading to go back to work on Monday because of something that happened on Friday.
Had a shouting match with the Hitler on Friday... *Who is a bitch*.. Can't imagine my boss shouting at me for the most trivial of all trivial matters. He walks in late for my photo shoot (and he told me that he will bring props for me, and also the fact that he wants to use his idea and didn't tell me, walks in and just basically told me that what I had done for the past hour is useless), kills off my idea ("what you're doing is nothing anyway") and when I wanted to go for lunch, he asks me, "Aren't you having a photo shoot?". I was so pissed. And he has got the gall to tell me after saying that 'you better go rather than stay here and sulk'. I was at this point clenching my fist, willing myself not to punch him in the balls. It took some willpower.
And so I walked off, to collect my cigs and ask Jay for a smoke. He says wait for 5 mins, so I walked off for a smoke first. As I reached the ground floor and my hands were just about to hold the door knob to open the door, Hitler (who is standing at the 1st floor stair landing) called down at me
Hitler:'What time are you coming back?"
Me: I am gonna go have a quick one, at the pantry...
Hitler: *half shouting* Why are you so like that today? Why are you so agitated?
Me: What do you mean?
Hitler: *cuts me off and shouting* WHAT'S WRONG WITH YOU? ALL I'M ASKING IS WHAT TIME YOU'RE COMING BACK. WHAT'S SO HARD WITH THAT?
Me: Look asshole, *ok, the asshole part I've censored* why are you shouting like a child?
Hitler: IT'S BECAUSE YOU'RE ACTING LIKE ONE..
Me: *walks off*
Hitler: COME BACK HERE
Me: *imagines a fighting scene, a gong sounds and some deep manly voice says 'ROUND 1' and walks back in* I'll be back in half an hour *walks out of the door.... and cries*
I kept replaying the scene in my head and I hate it. Hate it for the fact that I have not done anything wrong and he had wrongly yelled at me. I can imagine the better part of the office had heard his part of the yelling match. And for those who had heard him would think that I have done something very wrong for him to yell at me like that.
Which I hate because he had always potrayed himself as a righteous person. Always helping people out and always saying the right things when actually he is a spiteful gay who thinks that thinks that the world owes him. He thinks everytime someone tells him something that is not right about him, it is a personal attack. When I told him after he said 'better go than to stay here and sulk' that if he wants to change the styling for that particular shoot he should have just smsed me or call me to say that he is late and just hold the shoot. Then I wouldn't be doing something useless and wasted the photographer's time and my time. Stupidasshole. Maybe being screwed at the back made him stupid. And a hypocrite. And a fucker. And a dumbass... UGH.. I can so fill the whole page with names for him. But I won't because I wouldn't stoop as low as he did.
So after walking out of the door, I called Sarah N to come down because we were supposed to have lunch together. Jay walks in and saw me crying and he asked why. Told him the whole story, Sarah N walks in, had to repeat the story, which was punctuated with lots of sniff, tears and mucus. After Jay left, continued talking to Sarah N and at one point cars drove past that little corner.
Hitler was in one of them and he saw me crying, he actually came down to confront me and it went like this:
Hitler: DO NOT CRY. Whatever it is, just go on with your intended shoot. Leave my stuff at the side and I will collect it later.
Me: You do not understand don't you? I am NOT upset about how the shoot was done! It is...
Hitler: *cutting me off once again* We will talk about this in our private session.
Me: *Whatever*
See how efficient this boss is to me? I am really angry at the fact that it is because of him that our deadlines are not met and he would still ask if we could close the mag by end of this week when he himself had not done his part. Oh man.. I think I should talking about him because the more I think about his Chinese face the more I want to go to where he stays and pour salt and sugar into his fuel tank. Or maybe put some rubber marks on his face.. UGh.. stop! If not I think my blood pressure will rise.
Sniff... To bed I guess, Sungai Wang tomorrow... I need retail therapy.
Thursday, June 23, 2005
My Views
Listening to: Mariah Carey
Munching on: Jacobs Hi-Cal Slices
Feeling: Slightly crabby
So, it's obviously another slow day in the office and here I am, bllooooooooging. Checked my emails.. Found this little piece of gem from Gigi's multiply blog.
Never Love with all your heart, it only ends in breaking.
Gigi had told me this countless times. Well... imho it's pretty cynical BUT it is exceptionally true. (I mean, compared to what Gigi always have to say.. It is pretty true) eheheh. Got my heart broken, still broken, now repairing... and in the process of being broken again. Yay!
When a man has once loved a woman he will do anything for her except continue to love her.
Maybe? Not sure.. Maybe?
He who falls in love meets a worse fate than he who leaps from rock.
This is totally agree. Not only leaping from rocks.. Maybe from the rocks into a pool of molten lava filled with mutated piranhas.
Yeah.. Cynical me..
Munching on: Jacobs Hi-Cal Slices
Feeling: Slightly crabby
So, it's obviously another slow day in the office and here I am, bllooooooooging. Checked my emails.. Found this little piece of gem from Gigi's multiply blog.
Never Love with all your heart, it only ends in breaking.
Gigi had told me this countless times. Well... imho it's pretty cynical BUT it is exceptionally true. (I mean, compared to what Gigi always have to say.. It is pretty true) eheheh. Got my heart broken, still broken, now repairing... and in the process of being broken again. Yay!
When a man has once loved a woman he will do anything for her except continue to love her.
Maybe? Not sure.. Maybe?
He who falls in love meets a worse fate than he who leaps from rock.
This is totally agree. Not only leaping from rocks.. Maybe from the rocks into a pool of molten lava filled with mutated piranhas.
Yeah.. Cynical me..
Differences
Listening to: Peter Pan - Mungkin Nanti
Feeling: Super Annoyed and feeling the approach of the crimson wave
Oh man.. I am feeling annoyed with everything today. Started off promising enough, with mum cooking her famous 'meehoon with sauce' and a pretty smooth drive to the Crowne Plaza Mutiara. Got there half an hour late for the SleemX *tho it is no biggie cause media events usually start half an hour to an hour late* but as I approached the parking entrance, found out that the bloody parking's full. Went up to the main lobby and realized that the only way I can park my car is to valet. And fucking valet costs RM18. Saddest thing is that when they parked the car for is that my dirty little Kelisa (baby) beside shiny, new and expensive Merc, BMs and Jaguars... I felt like, 'CRAP! I've just degraded my baby!!! T.T' Oh well, no time to lament, got to run to the god forsaken launch and when I reached the venue, it has just started and thank god it was dark because I was just zoning out. Wow.. what a great way to waste a Thursday morning..
Problem is, I felt like I had just wasted 2 hours of my life for something that was totally not relevant to me nor my magazine. I wonder why I get the crappy launches. Over and out..
Tidal crimson waves approaching!
Feeling: Super Annoyed and feeling the approach of the crimson wave
Oh man.. I am feeling annoyed with everything today. Started off promising enough, with mum cooking her famous 'meehoon with sauce' and a pretty smooth drive to the Crowne Plaza Mutiara. Got there half an hour late for the SleemX *tho it is no biggie cause media events usually start half an hour to an hour late* but as I approached the parking entrance, found out that the bloody parking's full. Went up to the main lobby and realized that the only way I can park my car is to valet. And fucking valet costs RM18. Saddest thing is that when they parked the car for is that my dirty little Kelisa (baby) beside shiny, new and expensive Merc, BMs and Jaguars... I felt like, 'CRAP! I've just degraded my baby!!! T.T' Oh well, no time to lament, got to run to the god forsaken launch and when I reached the venue, it has just started and thank god it was dark because I was just zoning out. Wow.. what a great way to waste a Thursday morning..
Problem is, I felt like I had just wasted 2 hours of my life for something that was totally not relevant to me nor my magazine. I wonder why I get the crappy launches. Over and out..
Tidal crimson waves approaching!
Wednesday, June 22, 2005
I retract the statement I had made in my previous post
Listening to: Blink 182 - I miss you
Feeling: Gloooooomy
OK, I knew I shouldn't had made such a statement in the first place but I want to totally retract what I had said in my previous post. My day was bad. Nic cancelled on birthday plans, feeling the crimson wave. That's it...
Crap...
Feeling: Gloooooomy
OK, I knew I shouldn't had made such a statement in the first place but I want to totally retract what I had said in my previous post. My day was bad. Nic cancelled on birthday plans, feeling the crimson wave. That's it...
Crap...
Ice Creams!!!!!
Listening to: Utada Hikaru - Devil Inside
Feeling: Oh so Shiawase!! =^-^=
Well... It's now my habit to check the Friendster forecast whenever I can everyday, I am an obsessive bitch. Here's mine today: -
One minute you're partners, working away together; then suddenly they've adopted a different role. If you're uncomfortable with it, say so. You won't get to the bottom of this by pretending it's not happening.
Freaky.. Thinks that it is about my boss. First he is a friend, then he became a boss, now he is a dictator. =_=; Can't do much. Just finish my work, finish and leave. The same for the next day. That's Life. With a capital L. Oh well..
The oh-so-shiawase-ness is because that Kay is coming back tomorrow! *hurray!* At last, I can eat ice-creams!!! Jamoca Almond FuDGE! Heaven! He owes me at least 20? Or more.. can't remember~ Nothing much happened today except for minor annoyance. For now... BUT, nothing can ruin my day!
*lalalalal*
Feeling: Oh so Shiawase!! =^-^=
Well... It's now my habit to check the Friendster forecast whenever I can everyday, I am an obsessive bitch. Here's mine today: -
One minute you're partners, working away together; then suddenly they've adopted a different role. If you're uncomfortable with it, say so. You won't get to the bottom of this by pretending it's not happening.
Freaky.. Thinks that it is about my boss. First he is a friend, then he became a boss, now he is a dictator. =_=; Can't do much. Just finish my work, finish and leave. The same for the next day. That's Life. With a capital L. Oh well..
The oh-so-shiawase-ness is because that Kay is coming back tomorrow! *hurray!* At last, I can eat ice-creams!!! Jamoca Almond FuDGE! Heaven! He owes me at least 20? Or more.. can't remember~ Nothing much happened today except for minor annoyance. For now... BUT, nothing can ruin my day!
*lalalalal*
Monday, June 20, 2005
Evil Forecast...
Listening to: Mariah Carey - Always be my baby
Feeling: Like having a neckache
Today's Friendster Forecast...
A relationship is morphing -- from coworkers to friends, perhaps, or maybe from friends to more-than-friends. Help it along by spending some time together away from the office or the crowd.
EVIL!!! Reading what you wanna read... Hearing what you wanna hear.. WTF
Feeling: Like having a neckache
Today's Friendster Forecast...
A relationship is morphing -- from coworkers to friends, perhaps, or maybe from friends to more-than-friends. Help it along by spending some time together away from the office or the crowd.
EVIL!!! Reading what you wanna read... Hearing what you wanna hear.. WTF
Sunday, June 19, 2005
What's this feeling?
Listening to: Fish Leong - Fly Away
Feeling: Warm and sticky, fuzzy in the stomach
Having a fuzzy feeling in my stomach could only mean one thing, LOVE. Yes... L-O-V-E. A beautiful word to some, but for me now, it is nasty.. Very nasty.
Venue: Central Perk
Attendance : Nini and Sarah N
Topic:L-O-V-E
Yes, I know I had been subconsciously talking about Jay again.. Doesn't help that Sarah N and Nini had been telling me how me and him had 'Foo chai seong' (or, that I look like him... something like that.. somehow, that we look good together)
Feeling: Warm and sticky, fuzzy in the stomach
Having a fuzzy feeling in my stomach could only mean one thing, LOVE. Yes... L-O-V-E. A beautiful word to some, but for me now, it is nasty.. Very nasty.
Venue: Central Perk
Attendance : Nini and Sarah N
Topic:L-O-V-E
Yes, I know I had been subconsciously talking about Jay again.. Doesn't help that Sarah N and Nini had been telling me how me and him had 'Foo chai seong' (or, that I look like him... something like that.. somehow, that we look good together)
Nini: *giggles* I think he looks good standing beside you
Me: *frowns* What you mean our size?
Nini: Nonono!! The height, look, the feel..
Me: (*thinks* What? Everything that cannot be explain in words is substituted with 'feel'?) Butbutbut... Not really.. I think he looks like my brother!
Nini: *giggles* Really, I do think that you guys... like that day when I saw you in xxxxxxx and he was standing beside you.. I thought to myself.. that you guys look perfect together... Right Sarah N? I think your wedding pictures would look good.*turns to a silent Sarah for support*
Me: *sweatdrops*
Sarah N: Well, I do think you have the 'foo chai seong'.
Me: What about SD6?
Nini: I wouldn't say that he has that with you.. you guys look normal.
Sarah N: *agrees*
Me: *turns flustered and sputters* Ergh... NooOoOOo *feels butterflies* OHNO.. not this feeling!!! *falls into an endless pit and dies* OMFG, you guys win... *cries* T-T
**the end, but not of the conversation**
Hmmm.. honestly, if you ask me.. yes, I do feel butterflies when I see him but, it's because he gives me this feeling.. that I knew him from before. I feel like he is the elder brother that I never had. Honestly, I feel safe with him. As though I can count on him to look out for me, which he does occasionally. And doesn't help that he is nice to me, *pause* well, afterthought... nicer than how he would treat alot more other people... *rolls around in grave*
Shit.. yes, this could only be explained in these words, SHIT. Very deep shit. I am wallowing in shit. Yay.. oh my god..
Calling anonymous commenter no.1
Just out of curiousity, I wanna know who posted up an anonymous comment in one of my post.. And I have also realised that ever since I set up 'No anonymous comments', no one had been commenting.. Why ar? Why ar? Why ar?
Friday, June 17, 2005
Rest in Peace, Tama-chan
Feeling - Sadness
Tama-chan scampered into our lives a few weeks ago when my brother proudly pulled a small fish tank out of a battered paper bag, declaring that he brought home a mouse. 'It is a cow mouse', he says and continued to enlighten us, saying that it is actually snake feed. While Tama-chan was bred to be snake snack, my brother kinda rescued it and we thought we had prolonged his life.. somewhat..
Me and sis was delighted and named it Tama-chan. My brother named him/her Yue Fa, some character from some chinese movie. Tama became our pet and it was a long time since we had a pet. Mum was appalled because it is a mouse.. Gem, Sarah N, Nini and Gigi doted over it when they came over.
But as of yesterday, Tama-Chan had joined the great cheese heaven in the sky. I told sis that it was her doing because she didn't want to clean out her cage.
Sis: Sob.. Tama chan is dead.. sob
Me: Bloody. It's because you always never take care.. How? Bury it nice nice.
Sis: Omg... it's not my fault.. throw already
Me: *thinks.. OMG... flushed down the loo? and forgets to reply sis*
Sis: *at the most ungodly time* Put your hands together now and say, 'Rest in Peace'.. Tama.. sob
While I have loved Tama-chan alot, I didn't know that it had such a big impact on my sister.. I did feel sad when I was told about it, maybe that is why I don't like having pets. I hate the feeling of someone leaving me. Just being selfish..
Tama-chan.. rest in peace and may your whiskers always be long and white..
Settling Down
Listening to: Kylie Minogue - I believe in you
Feeling: Sleepy
Yawn.. The chaotic mess is finally over. Everyone had more or less packed and unpacked things that are nessacery for the new office. Heck, some even nicely decorated their walls. Feels more like office now. I've got a spiffy new cubicle that is like a ship compared to my paltry space back in the old office. Nicely arranged all my Pichus and my pink nodding thing that Arihito had gave me for my birthday. *he's such a sweetie*
Feeling extremely bored because for some unknown reason, my row of cubicle's net is down and everyone elses is up. Weird. Am typing this in notepad, feeling supremely sleeping and hungry at the same time. Ohman.. hurry up!
Feeling: Sleepy
Yawn.. The chaotic mess is finally over. Everyone had more or less packed and unpacked things that are nessacery for the new office. Heck, some even nicely decorated their walls. Feels more like office now. I've got a spiffy new cubicle that is like a ship compared to my paltry space back in the old office. Nicely arranged all my Pichus and my pink nodding thing that Arihito had gave me for my birthday. *he's such a sweetie*
Feeling extremely bored because for some unknown reason, my row of cubicle's net is down and everyone elses is up. Weird. Am typing this in notepad, feeling supremely sleeping and hungry at the same time. Ohman.. hurry up!
Wednesday, June 15, 2005
Moving Day Chaos
Listening to Chantal Kreviazuk - Feels like home
Feeling: Itchy from mozzie bites
The day of the big Bluinc move looms closer and everyone is going bonkers trying to cope with the crazy deadlines and movers going round clearing stuff and hauling boxes. Boxes and paper everywhere, dust and BO (from the movers) mingled with the smell of my cKone perfume.
Take this amount of trash and multiply it with a thousand, you'll get the accumalated trash of Bluinc
My temper ran thin with a few colleagues started having their crazy fits. Some went round screaming names in an extra shrill voice, just for the heck of it and combined with the fact that it is my bloaty season.. I was about to scream myself too.
In short... it was like Armageddon, and I can envision myself in a desolated and flattened down city with lots of smoke coming out from the rubble. Hahah.. Hitler told me that I spaced out. I did.. Jay was on the verge of killing people. The movers are here again today. Just hope that it wouldn't be as crazy as yesterday!
"Everyone, look I've found a dead rat in my drawers"
"OMG, tht's last season's Prada. OMG, send it to the bin!"
Just wanna get settled down into our new office because the whole move is getting to me.
Feeling: Itchy from mozzie bites
The day of the big Bluinc move looms closer and everyone is going bonkers trying to cope with the crazy deadlines and movers going round clearing stuff and hauling boxes. Boxes and paper everywhere, dust and BO (from the movers) mingled with the smell of my cKone perfume.
Take this amount of trash and multiply it with a thousand, you'll get the accumalated trash of Bluinc
My temper ran thin with a few colleagues started having their crazy fits. Some went round screaming names in an extra shrill voice, just for the heck of it and combined with the fact that it is my bloaty season.. I was about to scream myself too.
In short... it was like Armageddon, and I can envision myself in a desolated and flattened down city with lots of smoke coming out from the rubble. Hahah.. Hitler told me that I spaced out. I did.. Jay was on the verge of killing people. The movers are here again today. Just hope that it wouldn't be as crazy as yesterday!
"Everyone, look I've found a dead rat in my drawers"
"OMG, tht's last season's Prada. OMG, send it to the bin!"
Just wanna get settled down into our new office because the whole move is getting to me.
Sunday, June 12, 2005
Sitting in a darkened room with mozzies aplenty
Listening to: Mariah Carey - Breakdown
Feeling: Nausated due to the chips just I had
It is depressing. Sitting here in a darkened room, which is my office waiting for friends to reply to see if they wanted to have a drink. Guess by the time I finish this blog, I shall return home for Maggi or something like that.
Thinking about things that do not matter, wondering why I am still here when I can actually head home. Guess home it will be.. Fuck the packing bit. Packing sucks. bleh
Feeling: Nausated due to the chips just I had
It is depressing. Sitting here in a darkened room, which is my office waiting for friends to reply to see if they wanted to have a drink. Guess by the time I finish this blog, I shall return home for Maggi or something like that.
Thinking about things that do not matter, wondering why I am still here when I can actually head home. Guess home it will be.. Fuck the packing bit. Packing sucks. bleh
The one where she finds a lizard while packing
Listening to: M-Flo - I wanna be down
Looking like: A FedEx mover, boxes, cap and all
Feeling: Optimistic
Here I am again in the office, trying to pack everything into boxes that are too small. I found the dead body of a baby lizard while trying to clear up the press releases I have. Eeek!!! That's a sure sign that I don't clean up too often. I've been in Bluinc for about a year now.. and this is the first time I actually dared to venture into No Man's Land and try to clean out the junk I have accumilated throughout. As I was packing, I thought Isn't it better if I do this every month? Just a thought, only a thought. Hahah.. Cause I know the moment I step into our new office, I will be starting the whole vicious cycle again, until it is time for me to move on again. Erkk...
Yes, Bluinc is moving. It is exciting. Because according to my colleagues, the new office is da bomb. I hope so too... Bluinc now is recognized as Kilang Gula Gula Hudsons (Bluinc resides beside the Hudson's Sweet Factory). Crap. I inhale, in the correct order, Mint, Lime, Cherry and Honey flavours every alternate day. It's like, Hey I smell Lime, it must be a Tuesday! Wtf..
I would miss this place, I bet but not in a good way. Let's just hope everything works out in the new place. Back to packing.. Hope I don't find another dead lizard!
Looking like: A FedEx mover, boxes, cap and all
Feeling: Optimistic
Here I am again in the office, trying to pack everything into boxes that are too small. I found the dead body of a baby lizard while trying to clear up the press releases I have. Eeek!!! That's a sure sign that I don't clean up too often. I've been in Bluinc for about a year now.. and this is the first time I actually dared to venture into No Man's Land and try to clean out the junk I have accumilated throughout. As I was packing, I thought Isn't it better if I do this every month? Just a thought, only a thought. Hahah.. Cause I know the moment I step into our new office, I will be starting the whole vicious cycle again, until it is time for me to move on again. Erkk...
Yes, Bluinc is moving. It is exciting. Because according to my colleagues, the new office is da bomb. I hope so too... Bluinc now is recognized as Kilang Gula Gula Hudsons (Bluinc resides beside the Hudson's Sweet Factory). Crap. I inhale, in the correct order, Mint, Lime, Cherry and Honey flavours every alternate day. It's like, Hey I smell Lime, it must be a Tuesday! Wtf..
I would miss this place, I bet but not in a good way. Let's just hope everything works out in the new place. Back to packing.. Hope I don't find another dead lizard!
Of teacups and a queasy stomach in the 17 Summer Splash
Listening to: Utada Hikaru - Deep River
*With one eye closed from the fatigue from the whole day of doing nothing :p*
Feeling: Queasy from the horrible, horrible teacup ride. *damn teacups*
Pix courtesy of Kst
It was a splashing good time in Sunway Lagoon today. Me and Sarah N helped out the 17 team doing registrations, so it was 'Let me see your SMS, ok please delete it. Here's your tickets and 2 goodie bags for you, have a great time' for like a hundred thousand time. But, the pain was short. We ran out of goodie bags after an hour and a half. Cleared up and left for the wave pool. Nie, Ndrew, Kst and Arihito was there to support their dear friends too.. *I suspect the lure of nubile young bodies in bikinis did the trick*
Went around the wave pool after finishing registration and took some pictures *above* and then after 20 minutes or so of white, flabby and hairy looking men, we decided to head for the rides.
First Stop
The Galleon. What the... this is like a bloody swing if you ask me, but Kst was chickening out.. NoOoO he says but in the end decided to join us just in case we will laugh at him later on in life. Came out with ants crawling inside tummy. Nie and Ndrew held on to each other, Sarah N grasped at her skirt because she was afraid that it would fly. Kst came out safely, with a right side migraine.
Next Stop *Shakes fist at teacups*
The Apache Pots. Damn teacups. Hated this ride ever since I was a kid, but since I didn't want to be a wet blanket, I gamely soldiered on. With disasterous side effects. noOoOo.. I screamed throughout the ride. I want my mummy .... came soon after. The next pot was trying to outdo themselves. Nie, Ndrew, Kst and Arihito was trying to spin the damn thing off its bearing. I got a headache thinking of how fast it flew. Came out wanting to puke on the floor. The rest just tumbled about. *was it just because of my churning stomach and headache?*
Next Next Stop *turns around to shake fist at teacups, damn teacups*
The Tomohawk. I think this is like everyone's 'I will show you I can do it' nightmare ride. Saying so because everyone will take a ride, but not because they want to do it but maybe because they wanna show off that they have the balls to do it. Kst, Sarah N and her siblings declined the ride, stating that they are more comfy on ground instead of hanging upside down and then come crashing down to earth.
I can't decline this ride of course. Getting on this is like a mission everytime I get back to Sunway Lagoon. Nie and Tomohawk virgin Ndrew went into the first car, me and Arihito went into the next. (yes, queasy stomach and all) The seats stinks. eww... It smelled of wet swimsuits and sweat. Yucks. At that point, I wanted to throw up. beee.. The siren sounded and off we went. Ndrew was screaming, Nie was giggling. Arihito... was making weird comments about how many coins he can hear dropping. I was just thinking about how much I want to get home, shower and maybe throw up.
Got off the rides in one piece and I think that would be the last time I return to Sunway Lagoon. (even if I do, the teacups can go to hell) All in all, a good day. Too bad Gigi and Do had to go home early. Oh well.. if not for the teacups... damn teacups.. uwek.. can't think of teacups..
*Shakes fist at the teacups, damn you to hell........*
The goodie bags that were coveted by all 17 readers
*With one eye closed from the fatigue from the whole day of doing nothing :p*
Feeling: Queasy from the horrible, horrible teacup ride. *damn teacups*
Pix courtesy of Kst
It was a splashing good time in Sunway Lagoon today. Me and Sarah N helped out the 17 team doing registrations, so it was 'Let me see your SMS, ok please delete it. Here's your tickets and 2 goodie bags for you, have a great time' for like a hundred thousand time. But, the pain was short. We ran out of goodie bags after an hour and a half. Cleared up and left for the wave pool. Nie, Ndrew, Kst and Arihito was there to support their dear friends too.. *I suspect the lure of nubile young bodies in bikinis did the trick*
Went around the wave pool after finishing registration and took some pictures *above* and then after 20 minutes or so of white, flabby and hairy looking men, we decided to head for the rides.
First Stop
The Galleon. What the... this is like a bloody swing if you ask me, but Kst was chickening out.. NoOoO he says but in the end decided to join us just in case we will laugh at him later on in life. Came out with ants crawling inside tummy. Nie and Ndrew held on to each other, Sarah N grasped at her skirt because she was afraid that it would fly. Kst came out safely, with a right side migraine.
Next Stop *Shakes fist at teacups*
The Apache Pots. Damn teacups. Hated this ride ever since I was a kid, but since I didn't want to be a wet blanket, I gamely soldiered on. With disasterous side effects. noOoOo.. I screamed throughout the ride. I want my mummy .... came soon after. The next pot was trying to outdo themselves. Nie, Ndrew, Kst and Arihito was trying to spin the damn thing off its bearing. I got a headache thinking of how fast it flew. Came out wanting to puke on the floor. The rest just tumbled about. *was it just because of my churning stomach and headache?*
Next Next Stop *turns around to shake fist at teacups, damn teacups*
The Tomohawk. I think this is like everyone's 'I will show you I can do it' nightmare ride. Saying so because everyone will take a ride, but not because they want to do it but maybe because they wanna show off that they have the balls to do it. Kst, Sarah N and her siblings declined the ride, stating that they are more comfy on ground instead of hanging upside down and then come crashing down to earth.
I can't decline this ride of course. Getting on this is like a mission everytime I get back to Sunway Lagoon. Nie and Tomohawk virgin Ndrew went into the first car, me and Arihito went into the next. (yes, queasy stomach and all) The seats stinks. eww... It smelled of wet swimsuits and sweat. Yucks. At that point, I wanted to throw up. beee.. The siren sounded and off we went. Ndrew was screaming, Nie was giggling. Arihito... was making weird comments about how many coins he can hear dropping. I was just thinking about how much I want to get home, shower and maybe throw up.
Got off the rides in one piece and I think that would be the last time I return to Sunway Lagoon. (even if I do, the teacups can go to hell) All in all, a good day. Too bad Gigi and Do had to go home early. Oh well.. if not for the teacups... damn teacups.. uwek.. can't think of teacups..
*Shakes fist at the teacups, damn you to hell........*
The goodie bags that were coveted by all 17 readers
Wednesday, June 08, 2005
I am a Dog.
| You Were Actually Born Under: |
 However, you don't trust others to be as ethical as you are! Straight forward and direct, you really aren't one for small talk. You are a great listener - and an agreeable companion when you're in a good mood! You are most compatible with a Tiger or Horse. |
| You Should Have Been Born Under: |
You are totally loyal, faithful, and honest. However, you don't trust others to be as ethical as you are! Straight forward and direct, you really aren't one for small talk. You are a great listener - and an agreeable companion when you're in a good mood! You are most compatible with a Tiger or Horse. |
Go figure... I am a dog!
Monday, June 06, 2005
Million Hair
This is me ... then
This is me ... now
This is me ... now
Listening to: So in Love - De Lovely Soundtrack
Yeap, I did it. I got my hair cut. Pleased as punch because I thought it looks darn good. Well, maybe not in that picture. But, really, I like the whole short and sweet look. Everyone was shocked and thought that I went through some traumatic experience and that the only sane thing to do after that is to cut my lovely hair off. Weird. A sample for your enjoyment
Gem: I can't stop staring at your hair. I need to get used to it...
After a few mins of driving
Me: Why are you staring at me? O.o;
Gem: I can't stop staring at your hair.
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Sarah N: *gapes from afar* omg... I thought you were a guy from far...
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Nie: *points and gapes* Ohno, what happened? Who broke your heart? *blahblahblah*
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Ndrew: *points and gapes* Ohno, what happened? Who broke your heart? *in unison with Nie*
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Jay: *concentrates on stirring coffee*
Me: Why are you so engrossed in your coffee?
Jay: What you want me to say?
Me: Nothing
Jay: *no comments*
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G: *mouth wide open, while opening the gate. Gets into car, mouth still wide open*
Me: So what do you think?
G: *mouth wide open* OMG, you look... more mature. *hastily added* but look nice!!! (an amazing feat, mouth agape and talking the same time)
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Sarah S: *holding cig packs in one hand, mouth opened so big that the cig box could actually sit there comfily* OMFG, it's so ... short. But you look nice.
Me: Smoke?
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Short bites:
Colleague 1: HEY, YOU CUT YOUR HAIR! *from the opposite side of the room*
Me: *smiles* Yeah I did! *thinks 'NO, actually all I did was hacked off my hair, see the difference?*
Colleague 2: OMG, what happened? Are you ok? Did anything happen? Is it the stress? *goes on for the longest time. No space to write them all down*
Colleaguer 3: *from 500 metres away near the restaurant we always have lunch in* YOUR HAIR!!!!!
Me: Has ran off....
Hmm... loads more comments along the line as such.. Wish I had more time to write them all down. It's hilarious. Till then... Oh well..
Friday, June 03, 2005
On Me Being Fat - Part 2
Listening to: Ken Hirai - Life is...
So after much (actually two :) but really.. much appreaciated!!) support from Anonymous No1 and not so Anonymous Gigi, I feel great because then, I know that there is salvation for fat people.
But having said that, me and a few colleagues, Seema, Sarah and Jay decided that we should go on a health spree. Come Monday, we will be eating less and will be trying to do some sort of an exercise (ohman.. I am so not gonna do it =_=;). Simply because there are people who are doing this with me, I feel much more motivated to do it. It is really really hard to lose weight (that's news to those thin people reading this :p)
So guess this will also be my diet journal. What I ate, what I did everything will be recorded here. Just hope that the temptation to go bulimic won't hit me again. Cause it seemed more easy to do so. Instead of abstaining from your favorite roti, just eat it and throw up. Oh man... Those were the days..
I can't believe that I could talk about this as though I had flu and OD-ed on flu med. People out there, bulimia is bad. That's why I stopped. Try doing a search on Bulimia and its effects and you will see scary things like hair loss, teeth rotting, not being able to have babies, these things gave me the creeps. Thank goodness for the report I had to do for our college assignment.
So let's just hope this determination continues. I want to show the world I can really do it. And to those idiots who laughed at me before, eat your heart out! :p
So after much (actually two :) but really.. much appreaciated!!) support from Anonymous No1 and not so Anonymous Gigi, I feel great because then, I know that there is salvation for fat people.
But having said that, me and a few colleagues, Seema, Sarah and Jay decided that we should go on a health spree. Come Monday, we will be eating less and will be trying to do some sort of an exercise (ohman.. I am so not gonna do it =_=;). Simply because there are people who are doing this with me, I feel much more motivated to do it. It is really really hard to lose weight (that's news to those thin people reading this :p)
So guess this will also be my diet journal. What I ate, what I did everything will be recorded here. Just hope that the temptation to go bulimic won't hit me again. Cause it seemed more easy to do so. Instead of abstaining from your favorite roti, just eat it and throw up. Oh man... Those were the days..
I can't believe that I could talk about this as though I had flu and OD-ed on flu med. People out there, bulimia is bad. That's why I stopped. Try doing a search on Bulimia and its effects and you will see scary things like hair loss, teeth rotting, not being able to have babies, these things gave me the creeps. Thank goodness for the report I had to do for our college assignment.
So let's just hope this determination continues. I want to show the world I can really do it. And to those idiots who laughed at me before, eat your heart out! :p
Thursday, June 02, 2005
On Me Being Fat
Listening to: De Lovely Soundtrack (Again!)
On days like these, I wonder why did I even bothered to get out of bed. Should taken MC or something. Was sitting alone in my local Starbucks, nursing my iced latte in one hand and Marlboro Menthol Lights on the other. Decided after a short half an hour that it ain't fun after all.
Was doing some thinking (don't gasp people, I do think), and somehow me being fat kept popping into my head.
An open letter to the thin people:
Dear Twiggies,
I have never offended any of you thin people. In fact, I have always respected you all for your determination to stay thin. I have never dissed anyone of you, why do you diss me? Why do you eye me up and down and laugh at me if I wear a sleeveless tee? Do you think it is amusing that I am 20kgs overweight? Have I laughed at people who are 20kg underweight?
It makes me feel sad for you, who had laughed at my chubby arms, because you are so so so shallow. I hope there is salvation for you.
Your's Faithfully,
The Fat Pig
For the records, I am pretty comfy with who I am pretty or not. Don't come and tell me that I am pretty 'but'.....
Tell me what is beautiful because I have never thought being thin is all to being beautiful.
People make me feel inadequet. Everyone's equal, but then why do I feel as though I am of a different species?
The FAT species <---- (fat is a bad word) heheh
On days like these, I wonder why did I even bothered to get out of bed. Should taken MC or something. Was sitting alone in my local Starbucks, nursing my iced latte in one hand and Marlboro Menthol Lights on the other. Decided after a short half an hour that it ain't fun after all.
Was doing some thinking (don't gasp people, I do think), and somehow me being fat kept popping into my head.
An open letter to the thin people:
Dear Twiggies,
I have never offended any of you thin people. In fact, I have always respected you all for your determination to stay thin. I have never dissed anyone of you, why do you diss me? Why do you eye me up and down and laugh at me if I wear a sleeveless tee? Do you think it is amusing that I am 20kgs overweight? Have I laughed at people who are 20kg underweight?
It makes me feel sad for you, who had laughed at my chubby arms, because you are so so so shallow. I hope there is salvation for you.
Your's Faithfully,
The Fat Pig
For the records, I am pretty comfy with who I am pretty or not. Don't come and tell me that I am pretty 'but'.....
Tell me what is beautiful because I have never thought being thin is all to being beautiful.
People make me feel inadequet. Everyone's equal, but then why do I feel as though I am of a different species?
The FAT species <---- (fat is a bad word) heheh
Thursday, May 26, 2005
Feels like....
Listening to: DeLovely Soundtrack
Feeling: Blank
Another year older.
Hey.. It feels the same.
Realization hit me yesterday right after I had my first Flaming Lamborgini at the stroke of 12. But you know what? It feels great. And I intend to feel the same for the next ten years.
Feeling: Blank
Another year older.
Hey.. It feels the same.
Realization hit me yesterday right after I had my first Flaming Lamborgini at the stroke of 12. But you know what? It feels great. And I intend to feel the same for the next ten years.
Birthday Story - The Day
Listening to: Ryan Caberra - True
Feeling: Amused
Feeling: Amused
Am feeling amused with the amount of drama and fun that surrounded me and Gem's birthday. Me, Gem (of course), Sarah. Nie and Ndrew went for dinner at 'Shall we meet' in SS2 and we were so loud there, as usual, that the patrons sitting in the smoking section of the restaurant (which was outside, behind a glass door) felt obliged to send us a birthday wish.
Waiter: Miss, that Sir over there send you his birthday wish. *points*
Us: Uh... *looks around* which one?
Waiter: That one *points at this guy that looks like a thug or possibly a yakuza*
Me: *thinks* OMFG, they're coming to kill us! Sorry for making so much noise!!!
*says* Why, thank you! *waves and smiles at that guy while telling Sarah, that the guy must be from the yakuza*
Well, actually it didn't happen that way. The guy looked decent. Maybe he was just amused at the way we were being such camera hoes. Hehe.. It was just funny. Well, we did make a big mess with the cake and took loads of pictures. (above) *more at http://pinkity.multiply.com* Then we left the restaurant and headed for Central Perk. Had our usual drinks, still in high spirits. Had too much food and felt that we should burn some of the calories we had gained *courtesy of dinner and cake* by laughing. Very hard. And talking. Really loudly. Took more pictures, the camera hoes that we are.
And what do you know... before we could even say, I am so freaking full, Gem's dad drove by and passed us a sinfully delish Cheesecake! That makes two cakes in one day. And before you could say, cake is bad, we started digging into the cake. And man.. was it delicious or what. I think I gained 5 kgs that day. 2.5 kg from the food and 2.5 kg from the air that we sucked in because we laughed too much. Guess I would need to get the vacumn cleaner into my room that night. *private joke, hehe*
All in all, one of the best birthdays I had ever had. Only wished the people who weren't around was there. Wished that Speed Dial would be there, Arihito and Cow too. Arihito and Cow totally forgot. But Arihito apologized and he's a sweetie. Cow is just.... a Cow. Heh.. Best ever. Wish there will be more birthdays like these :p
Attendance:
2 Birthday girls. Me and Gem
1 Picky eater, Sarah
1 Conjoined Twins. Ndrew and Nie. Maybe should call them NdreNie. Heheh
1 Superglam supermodel. Gigi *who downplayed her glam so not to outshine the birthday girls :p thanks u Gigi*
Muahz to you all who had made this day one of the best
Pinks 2005, 23 and counting
Wednesday, May 25, 2005
Birthday Story - The Eve
Mood: Reminising
Listening to: Ken Hirai - Life is
Finally I found a way to multi photo blog, *thanks Joe* and so I am posting all these skanky pictures that I've took with me phone. It was my 23rd birthday, at The Curve's Colonial Times. A beautiful place great food, great ambiance and of course, the great company. To those who was there, thanks really really much! I loved the Flaming you guys got me, the cigar was wonderful as well, *special skanky services for skanky girls like us*
Attendance:
3 skanky ones (1 in the US of A, greatly missed) Joe, Tania and me
1 wonderful friend. The best any girl could ever wish for; Nic
1 ninja. The best any girl could ever wish for her birthday; Yews
2 guys I thought couldn't make it, but came! Aizat and Marz, you guys the best!
2 guys who came all the way from work, tru the rain and jam; Adrian and Eugene, you know you made my day
1 stripper. Well, not really. 1 surprise!!! All the way from Canada! You're wonderful!!
Wish I had more pictures to remember this day but unfortunately, my dear Nic *nic, if you're reading this, do remember =_=;* has not sent me more piccies. :p
But, with or without pictures, that whole night is forever embedded in my heart.
Reflecting on Life
Wonder Years
Candid snapshots by Pinkity
Was looking through my photo album on Monday and found some pictures that made me feel so god damned old. Looking at these pictures it reminded me when life was simple and fights with classmates were forgetten almost as soon as they started. A simple sorry meant so much and people saying that word actually meant it. Now, I whenever I say the word 'sorry', I really wonder if I actually meant it.
Keep thinking about things like these, wondering if it was because I am turning 23 soon and I hope it is not too late to start reflecting on life...
Monday, May 23, 2005
Random Thoughts at Random Hours
Suddenly have an urge to jot down all random thought I have at this ungodly hour of 6.16 pm in my office which is getting darker by the minute. It is gonna rain, I hear thunder.. Was supposed to do work... But what the hell...
If I am so forgetful, why can't I forget certain things I WANT to forget?
I feel shitty whenever I think of this. I know I am super forgetful.. If there is one thing I want to forget, it'll be about Speed Dial. But what the fark...
If being happy with yourself makes you happy, why are others not happy for you?
I was thinking, why do people dictate and tell you what to do with yourself? I was doing my promotional work for Seventeen last weekend and this lady told me that I am beautiful, but if only I lose some weight, I'd be prettier. Where did the little birdy who told me to be happy with what you are because that is what you are go?
If being cheerful is good, why did people say that I am ditzy and stupid?
I had been told twice that I am ditzy (or slightly blonde) twice in my 3 years at work. Now I know for a fact that I am not and most prolly am more intellectual and deep than people who had said these words and I am thinking why in the freaking world did they think so? Seems that it boiled down to the fact that I am always chipper and cheery and running around with a smile on my face. Oh hell, if they think that I am ditzy because of that, they are so dead wrong. Shits to be you when I am up up there and laughing at THEM. Heh...It kinda bothers me because I love being happy and people say that about you. Sorry to see them being to shallow. God help them.
If I am happy, why am I feeling so damn sad?
This is like one of the biggest contradiction that I have in life. I love being happy but somehow or other when I go home and lay on my bed, I feel sad. Maybe that is why I like going out till late. By the time I reach home, I am so dead tired that all I want to do is drop on the bed and sleep till tomorrow. Then I am out again. What's wrong with me? O.o I don't even really understand why I am feeling like this.
If we are promised that we go to Heaven when we die, why do people still fear death?
I constantly wonder why is it so that we are so afraid to die when we are told that we will be carted off to Heaven as long as we do good? Being a Buddhist, it is known that we will be washed of our sins in Hell before we reach Nirvana. Gem tells me that Catholics go through Purgotary (think that's the right spelling for it) before you go to Heaven and Christians generally go to Heaven right after they die unless they have sinned so bad they go to Hell. But then again, why are we still doing bad stuff
Just some random crappy thoughts that ran tru my head throughout the whole week and had to time to type them down.
If I am so forgetful, why can't I forget certain things I WANT to forget?
I feel shitty whenever I think of this. I know I am super forgetful.. If there is one thing I want to forget, it'll be about Speed Dial. But what the fark...
If being happy with yourself makes you happy, why are others not happy for you?
I was thinking, why do people dictate and tell you what to do with yourself? I was doing my promotional work for Seventeen last weekend and this lady told me that I am beautiful, but if only I lose some weight, I'd be prettier. Where did the little birdy who told me to be happy with what you are because that is what you are go?
If being cheerful is good, why did people say that I am ditzy and stupid?
I had been told twice that I am ditzy (or slightly blonde) twice in my 3 years at work. Now I know for a fact that I am not and most prolly am more intellectual and deep than people who had said these words and I am thinking why in the freaking world did they think so? Seems that it boiled down to the fact that I am always chipper and cheery and running around with a smile on my face. Oh hell, if they think that I am ditzy because of that, they are so dead wrong. Shits to be you when I am up up there and laughing at THEM. Heh...It kinda bothers me because I love being happy and people say that about you. Sorry to see them being to shallow. God help them.
If I am happy, why am I feeling so damn sad?
This is like one of the biggest contradiction that I have in life. I love being happy but somehow or other when I go home and lay on my bed, I feel sad. Maybe that is why I like going out till late. By the time I reach home, I am so dead tired that all I want to do is drop on the bed and sleep till tomorrow. Then I am out again. What's wrong with me? O.o I don't even really understand why I am feeling like this.
If we are promised that we go to Heaven when we die, why do people still fear death?
I constantly wonder why is it so that we are so afraid to die when we are told that we will be carted off to Heaven as long as we do good? Being a Buddhist, it is known that we will be washed of our sins in Hell before we reach Nirvana. Gem tells me that Catholics go through Purgotary (think that's the right spelling for it) before you go to Heaven and Christians generally go to Heaven right after they die unless they have sinned so bad they go to Hell. But then again, why are we still doing bad stuff
Just some random crappy thoughts that ran tru my head throughout the whole week and had to time to type them down.
The Silver Ring of Promise
Listening to: Peter Pan - Mungkin Nanti
Being in love requires loads of strengh and courage, I realized after listening to Fish Leong's 'Yung Chi'. There are times when I would think, why even bother? It is so hard to love, and even harder because it is a one sided one.
Had a talk on this yesterday night. My girls from the mamak agrees, that loving someone is painfully happy. It's like you wanna cry, and also wanna laugh. You want the best for him even though the best makes you cry. You want him to be with you and yet you want him to be away. Like how G would describe it, it is 'mau dun'. You want but you don't. Almost like you enjoy getting hurt.
So near yet so far, so far yet so near. You think of him, you laugh and then you cry. You want him but you don't want him. You try to forget him and yet you think of him. Sigh..
I have a silver ring which I call my silver ring of promises. It had been broken for about 4 years and yet I still wear it. As hard as I've tried looking for a replacement, I have no luck. I look around for it contantly, for something exactly the same but not broken so I can leave the broken one at home to keep. When will I find the replica? Maybe then, this broken ring can rest at home and my heart can heal. But till then, I will have to bear with the broken part which I keep so well hidden behind.
Being in love requires loads of strengh and courage, I realized after listening to Fish Leong's 'Yung Chi'. There are times when I would think, why even bother? It is so hard to love, and even harder because it is a one sided one.
Had a talk on this yesterday night. My girls from the mamak agrees, that loving someone is painfully happy. It's like you wanna cry, and also wanna laugh. You want the best for him even though the best makes you cry. You want him to be with you and yet you want him to be away. Like how G would describe it, it is 'mau dun'. You want but you don't. Almost like you enjoy getting hurt.
So near yet so far, so far yet so near. You think of him, you laugh and then you cry. You want him but you don't want him. You try to forget him and yet you think of him. Sigh..
I have a silver ring which I call my silver ring of promises. It had been broken for about 4 years and yet I still wear it. As hard as I've tried looking for a replacement, I have no luck. I look around for it contantly, for something exactly the same but not broken so I can leave the broken one at home to keep. When will I find the replica? Maybe then, this broken ring can rest at home and my heart can heal. But till then, I will have to bear with the broken part which I keep so well hidden behind.
Hit me!
Nyahhahaha
Candid snapshots by Pinkity
Recently Jay forwarded me this weirdass game that requires you to whack a guy up in the sky and t the objective of the game is to hit him as far as possible. It came with a challenge, which I took and won. The feud went on for a while and after a week or so, Jay resumed his throne as the champion. And then... one day, a really stressful day, I took a break and casually clicked on the link to whack the *imaginary* bitch queen into the sky. And guess what? I won the title back by 2000 or so metres. Hohoho.. I win I win I win!
Bite some dust Jay!
Birthday Blues
Birthday Bouquet
Listening to: Natalie Merchant - One Fine Day
My lovely colleagues got me this for my birthday (though it was a week early) and I was freaking delighted. Hehe.. It has to be freaking because this is the first time I have received anything like this. Thank god I remembered to take a picture of this because when I came back to work the next day, all the balloons were deflated. Sadness. Because the bunch was really big, I can't bring it back in my little silver baby, I snipped off one and wanted to give it to Gem but a gust of wind blew it out of my car and it flew far, far away. Oh well.. It was beautiful while it lasted.
Birthday's approaching, going out with Nic, Joe, Tania and the rest on the 25th. I think this is the first time I spent my birthday eve with them. :) Yay~
Friday, May 20, 2005
Mungkin saja kau bukan yang dulu lagi
I don't really listen to Indonesian songs, well, except for Kris Dayanti's but this is one of those tunes that you wanna listen to again and again. Well, this is the third post I have clocked in today. Maybe because I have done most of the things that I need to do so I am much more freer but not stress-free.
The magazine is late again this month. Like every month. Am feeling pretty much annoyed because it is because of things that I can't control. Oh, well... Can't say much because of that.
mungkin nanti - peter pan
Saatnya ku berkata mungkin yang terakhir kalinya
Sudahlah lepaskan semua kuyakin inilah waktunya
Mungkin saja kau bukan yang dulu lagi
Mungkin saja rasa itu telah pergi
Dan mungkin bila nanti kita kan bertemu lagi
Satu pintaku jangan kau coba tanyakan kembali
Rasa yang kutinggal mati
Seperti hari kemarin saat semua disini
Dan bila hatimu termenung bangun dari mimpi2mu
Membuka hatimu yang dulu cerita saat bersamaku
Mungkin saja kau bukan yang dulu lagi
Mungkin saja rasa itu telah pergi
Dan mungkin bila nanti kita kan bertemu lagi
Satu pintaku jangan kau coba tanyakan kembali
Rasa yang kutinggal mati
Seperti hari kemarin saat semua disini
Tak usah kau tanyakan lagi simpan untukmu sendiri
Semua sesal yang kau cari semua rasa yang kau beri
Listening to: Mariah Carey - Breakdown
This is like the gazzilionth time I'm listening to this. Jiwangness set to high, today is gonna be a super jiwang day. Am getting a headache for feeling so. Gotta stop this...Gem, if you're reading this, I really think I have Dad Complex. HELPPPPP~
The magazine is late again this month. Like every month. Am feeling pretty much annoyed because it is because of things that I can't control. Oh, well... Can't say much because of that.
mungkin nanti - peter pan
Saatnya ku berkata mungkin yang terakhir kalinya
Sudahlah lepaskan semua kuyakin inilah waktunya
Mungkin saja kau bukan yang dulu lagi
Mungkin saja rasa itu telah pergi
Dan mungkin bila nanti kita kan bertemu lagi
Satu pintaku jangan kau coba tanyakan kembali
Rasa yang kutinggal mati
Seperti hari kemarin saat semua disini
Dan bila hatimu termenung bangun dari mimpi2mu
Membuka hatimu yang dulu cerita saat bersamaku
Mungkin saja kau bukan yang dulu lagi
Mungkin saja rasa itu telah pergi
Dan mungkin bila nanti kita kan bertemu lagi
Satu pintaku jangan kau coba tanyakan kembali
Rasa yang kutinggal mati
Seperti hari kemarin saat semua disini
Tak usah kau tanyakan lagi simpan untukmu sendiri
Semua sesal yang kau cari semua rasa yang kau beri
Listening to: Mariah Carey - Breakdown
This is like the gazzilionth time I'm listening to this. Jiwangness set to high, today is gonna be a super jiwang day. Am getting a headache for feeling so. Gotta stop this...Gem, if you're reading this, I really think I have Dad Complex. HELPPPPP~
My Bestfriend's Wedding
Listening to: Tony Bennett - The way you look tonight
Some day, when I'm awfully low,
When the world is cold,
I will feel a glow just thinking of you...
And the way you look tonight.
Yes you're lovely,
with your smile so warm
And your cheeks so soft,
There is nothing for me but to love you,
And the way you look tonight.
With each word your tenderness grows,
Tearing my fear apart...
And that laugh that wrinkles your nose,
It touches my foolish heart.
Lovely ... Never, ever change.
Keep that breathless charm.
Won't you please arrange it ?
'Cause I love you ...
Just the way you look tonight.
Mm, Mm, Mm, Mm,
Just the way you look to-night.
Loved this song ever since I've watched My Bestfriend's Wedding. Love Love Love it and decided that if there is one song I have to play for my wedding this would be it. It is so freaking romantic. And.. Unforgettable by Nat King Cole as well. Yay.. Yeah..
Am still feeling jiwang, it is now lunchtime, and still the feeling is still here and I feel a need to shake this feeling off, like how a dog would shake water off. *imagines and feels stupid* heh... This song is downloaded for me by Jay *bless him for The Way you Look Tonight and Drops of Jupiter* hehe..
I have not blogged for a month and I think I am coming back with a revenge. I am gonna put in a few entries a day from now on. :)
Some day, when I'm awfully low,
When the world is cold,
I will feel a glow just thinking of you...
And the way you look tonight.
Yes you're lovely,
with your smile so warm
And your cheeks so soft,
There is nothing for me but to love you,
And the way you look tonight.
With each word your tenderness grows,
Tearing my fear apart...
And that laugh that wrinkles your nose,
It touches my foolish heart.
Lovely ... Never, ever change.
Keep that breathless charm.
Won't you please arrange it ?
'Cause I love you ...
Just the way you look tonight.
Mm, Mm, Mm, Mm,
Just the way you look to-night.
Loved this song ever since I've watched My Bestfriend's Wedding. Love Love Love it and decided that if there is one song I have to play for my wedding this would be it. It is so freaking romantic. And.. Unforgettable by Nat King Cole as well. Yay.. Yeah..
Am still feeling jiwang, it is now lunchtime, and still the feeling is still here and I feel a need to shake this feeling off, like how a dog would shake water off. *imagines and feels stupid* heh... This song is downloaded for me by Jay *bless him for The Way you Look Tonight and Drops of Jupiter* hehe..
I have not blogged for a month and I think I am coming back with a revenge. I am gonna put in a few entries a day from now on. :)
Drops of Jupiter
Feeling: Drops of Jupiter on my hair
Just another normal Friday morning, driving to work when 'Drops of Jupiter' started playing on the radio. That song has been my favourite song for as long as I remember and even till now, I get goosebumps when I listen to it. The lyrics are so whimsical yet I can relate to it. Don't ask how, I don't know too.
Now that she’s back in the atmosphere
With drops of jupiter in her hair, hey, hey
She acts like summer and walks like rain
Reminds me that there’s time to change, hey, hey
Since the return from her stay on the moon
She listens like spring and she talks like june, hey, hey
Tell me did you sail across the sun
Did you make it to the milky way to see the lights all faded
And that heaven is overrated
Tell me, did you fall for a shooting star
One without a permanent scar
And did you miss me while you were looking at yourself out there
Now that she’s back from that soul vacation
Tracing her way through the constellation, hey, hey
She checks out mozart while she does tae-bo
Reminds me that there’s time to grow, hey, hey
Now that she’s back in the atmosphere
I’m afraid that she might think of me as plain ol’ jane
Told a story about a man who is too afraid to fly so he never did land
Tell me did the wind sweep you off your feet
Did you finally get the chance to dance along the light of day
And head back to the milky way
And tell me, did venus blow your mind
Was it everything you wanted to find
And did you miss me while you were looking for yourself out there
Can you imagine no love, pride, deep-fried chicken
Your best friend always sticking up for you even when I know you’re wrong
Can you imagine no first dance, freeze dried romance five-hour phoneConversation
The best soy latte that you ever had . . . and me
Tell me did the wind sweep you off your feet
Did you finally get the chance to dance along the light of day
And head back toward the milky way
It's so super sigh... Ohwell... feeling pretty weird off these few days. Gem had been going on and on about her D and me feeling 'crushed' over Jay. Haha... Just a stupid little one but it makes days go by much easier. It's like having to take medicine and knowing that after all that bitter shit, you can have a piece of chocolate to go with it. It is like bliss. But you know that it wouldn't do anything for your health.
Listening to: Train - Drops of Jupiter
Feeling: All mushy mush
I think me and Gem spent about RM10 on SMS-es yesterday, chatting about her D and my current obssession. I think it is unhealthy, like the chocolate thing I was talking about? Yeah, unhealthy. Out of the pan into the fire. Thinking that you KNOW this relationship thingy wouldn't work makes it harder to realise the stupidity because you actually think you know when to stop. And it wouldn't stop. Being in this mess all over again is like hmmm... eating super sticky warm melted chocolate. You'd get a warm feeling in your tummy at first but after a while, you just wanna throw up and you end up feeling gross and fat. Hahah... I have been using food to describe all of my current feelings, maybe it's a sign that says lunchtime is looming.
Listening to: Mariah Carey - Breakdown
Listening to all jiwang songs today because I feel super jiwang too. I wanna be somewhere else not here yet I wanna be here. What the hell... Birthday is coming up. Starting to feel old. /sob
Just another normal Friday morning, driving to work when 'Drops of Jupiter' started playing on the radio. That song has been my favourite song for as long as I remember and even till now, I get goosebumps when I listen to it. The lyrics are so whimsical yet I can relate to it. Don't ask how, I don't know too.
Now that she’s back in the atmosphere
With drops of jupiter in her hair, hey, hey
She acts like summer and walks like rain
Reminds me that there’s time to change, hey, hey
Since the return from her stay on the moon
She listens like spring and she talks like june, hey, hey
Tell me did you sail across the sun
Did you make it to the milky way to see the lights all faded
And that heaven is overrated
Tell me, did you fall for a shooting star
One without a permanent scar
And did you miss me while you were looking at yourself out there
Now that she’s back from that soul vacation
Tracing her way through the constellation, hey, hey
She checks out mozart while she does tae-bo
Reminds me that there’s time to grow, hey, hey
Now that she’s back in the atmosphere
I’m afraid that she might think of me as plain ol’ jane
Told a story about a man who is too afraid to fly so he never did land
Tell me did the wind sweep you off your feet
Did you finally get the chance to dance along the light of day
And head back to the milky way
And tell me, did venus blow your mind
Was it everything you wanted to find
And did you miss me while you were looking for yourself out there
Can you imagine no love, pride, deep-fried chicken
Your best friend always sticking up for you even when I know you’re wrong
Can you imagine no first dance, freeze dried romance five-hour phoneConversation
The best soy latte that you ever had . . . and me
Tell me did the wind sweep you off your feet
Did you finally get the chance to dance along the light of day
And head back toward the milky way
It's so super sigh... Ohwell... feeling pretty weird off these few days. Gem had been going on and on about her D and me feeling 'crushed' over Jay. Haha... Just a stupid little one but it makes days go by much easier. It's like having to take medicine and knowing that after all that bitter shit, you can have a piece of chocolate to go with it. It is like bliss. But you know that it wouldn't do anything for your health.
Listening to: Train - Drops of Jupiter
Feeling: All mushy mush
I think me and Gem spent about RM10 on SMS-es yesterday, chatting about her D and my current obssession. I think it is unhealthy, like the chocolate thing I was talking about? Yeah, unhealthy. Out of the pan into the fire. Thinking that you KNOW this relationship thingy wouldn't work makes it harder to realise the stupidity because you actually think you know when to stop. And it wouldn't stop. Being in this mess all over again is like hmmm... eating super sticky warm melted chocolate. You'd get a warm feeling in your tummy at first but after a while, you just wanna throw up and you end up feeling gross and fat. Hahah... I have been using food to describe all of my current feelings, maybe it's a sign that says lunchtime is looming.
Listening to: Mariah Carey - Breakdown
Listening to all jiwang songs today because I feel super jiwang too. I wanna be somewhere else not here yet I wanna be here. What the hell... Birthday is coming up. Starting to feel old. /sob
Saturday, April 16, 2005
Why am I here?
Listening to: Maroon Five-She will be loved
Feeling: Sleepy and yuckyuckyuckky~
Ugh, why am I here even today? Yawn~ It is a Saturday and tomorrow is the company trip to Cherating, here I am working again. Had beens taying back the past couple of days and I am starting to feel as though I live here. I should bring my sleeping bag, toothbrush, the works here. So sucky. 'Nuff bitchings
Listening to: Frou Frou-Breathe in
Was a long yet short week. Felt as though mornings melted into nights and the week was one very long and fucked up day. Hitler was not around so I had to take care of so many things alone. Late late nights in the office, 3 hour sleep, too much coffee and cigarettes will only lead to death, now I know. I have eyebags from hell and pimples are coming, I can hear them calling and trying to pop out. Man I need some sleep. ugh... Still waiting for my designer to come and he says that he has to leave at 1. It is already 1142am. Guess he won't be coming anyway~ =_=;
Feeling: Sleepy and yuckyuckyuckky~
Ugh, why am I here even today? Yawn~ It is a Saturday and tomorrow is the company trip to Cherating, here I am working again. Had beens taying back the past couple of days and I am starting to feel as though I live here. I should bring my sleeping bag, toothbrush, the works here. So sucky. 'Nuff bitchings
Listening to: Frou Frou-Breathe in
Was a long yet short week. Felt as though mornings melted into nights and the week was one very long and fucked up day. Hitler was not around so I had to take care of so many things alone. Late late nights in the office, 3 hour sleep, too much coffee and cigarettes will only lead to death, now I know. I have eyebags from hell and pimples are coming, I can hear them calling and trying to pop out. Man I need some sleep. ugh... Still waiting for my designer to come and he says that he has to leave at 1. It is already 1142am. Guess he won't be coming anyway~ =_=;
Tuesday, April 05, 2005
The Monday Pinks
Listening to: M-Flo - Love Bug
Feeling: Monday Pinks
It issss, it is Monday. My fave day of the week, because it is the beginning of the end.. hohoho. I am feeling the Monday Pinks, incase you're wondering what in the world that means, it means that I am not feeling the blues. In short, I am haaaaapyyyy~. Partly because my boss is not around. Another is because in two short weeks, we will be going for our company trip in Cherating. Yay~ because that trip is what that is keeping me alive for now. So sick of work and the neverending deadlines. One goes and another one comes. What's this? Groundhog Day? Thank god that I am so the in love with this job, if not I would have dropped dead and died.
Ohh.. This is a good Monday, I can feel it in the air the moment I woke up. And good it was.. traffic lights were all green and I zoomed pass, slightly late for work, but still ok. The sandwich I bought was fresh and yummy, got to the office, ok.. no fuck ups so far. Turned on hotmail.com and got an email from Rina!!! She just got herself hitched. OK.. not hitched as in married, but got herself a man. Hahah.. I was laughing to myself when I was reading that... Ohman... people in the office must be thinking that I am mad or something. I want to announce this to the world.. It is good news. Called Nic but he's not picking up the phone. Must be asleep still that boy...
Anyway, the Monday Pinks is getting to me.. I need more coffee.. I need to pop out to buy lunch later... oh well.. *throws confetti all round* yay yay yay~ Hiphip Hurrah~
Feeling: Monday Pinks
It issss, it is Monday. My fave day of the week, because it is the beginning of the end.. hohoho. I am feeling the Monday Pinks, incase you're wondering what in the world that means, it means that I am not feeling the blues. In short, I am haaaaapyyyy~. Partly because my boss is not around. Another is because in two short weeks, we will be going for our company trip in Cherating. Yay~ because that trip is what that is keeping me alive for now. So sick of work and the neverending deadlines. One goes and another one comes. What's this? Groundhog Day? Thank god that I am so the in love with this job, if not I would have dropped dead and died.
Ohh.. This is a good Monday, I can feel it in the air the moment I woke up. And good it was.. traffic lights were all green and I zoomed pass, slightly late for work, but still ok. The sandwich I bought was fresh and yummy, got to the office, ok.. no fuck ups so far. Turned on hotmail.com and got an email from Rina!!! She just got herself hitched. OK.. not hitched as in married, but got herself a man. Hahah.. I was laughing to myself when I was reading that... Ohman... people in the office must be thinking that I am mad or something. I want to announce this to the world.. It is good news. Called Nic but he's not picking up the phone. Must be asleep still that boy...
Anyway, the Monday Pinks is getting to me.. I need more coffee.. I need to pop out to buy lunch later... oh well.. *throws confetti all round* yay yay yay~ Hiphip Hurrah~
Saturday, March 26, 2005
Being Here nor There
Mood: Blank
Music: Frou Frou - Breathe in
What's wrong with the world today? The question that everyone asks. It's as if we are just sitting here, waiting for something to happen. It saddens me when I see a girl walking alone, clutching her bag to the side far from the road, eyeing every motorbike that passes her suspiciously. First thing that would come across my mind would be, she must have been robbed, at least once.
Wouldn't it be great to be in a world where violence and hate doesn't exist? I could already hear people saying 'Yeah!'. I am wishing for that too.. Now all we need to know is who's making the first step?
Music: Frou Frou - Breathe in
What's wrong with the world today? The question that everyone asks. It's as if we are just sitting here, waiting for something to happen. It saddens me when I see a girl walking alone, clutching her bag to the side far from the road, eyeing every motorbike that passes her suspiciously. First thing that would come across my mind would be, she must have been robbed, at least once.
Wouldn't it be great to be in a world where violence and hate doesn't exist? I could already hear people saying 'Yeah!'. I am wishing for that too.. Now all we need to know is who's making the first step?
Wednesday, March 16, 2005
No Big C After all
To all people who actually reads my blog. I had went to this website http://www.breastcancer.org/ and realized that the stupid lump was something that I shouldn't be worried even in the first place. It says that 70 something percent of lumps found on breast are benign. I am good. Life's good. God's in His heaven, all's good... I should be going for a check tho.. thanks G... Will do that sometime soon!
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