What to say, what to do?

I bite my nails.

I count to ten.

I shall endure the sanfuness in my heart but for how long?

Don't burn my fuse too short

Listening to: Eason Chen - 幸福摩天輪
Feeling: A little Emo-ed

So they tell me that a relationship is not a bed of roses. I know that from day one but I never expected it to be this hard.

Me being naively me, thought that all problems can be solved if we talk it out. Reality check! Doesn't work that way. Not that I'm having probs with The Boy but it's little things that makes things well, a relationship.

Being part of The Couple-dom makes me realise how hard it is for some to maintain a long-term relationship. Often both sides claim that they make the most sacrifice. Me? I just feel that I keep quiet when I'm annoyed or angry. Why? Cause it's easier to let him win. Or is it?

I can be the first to tell you that I am a person with a very short fuse. But I'm all loud sounds and then I'm OK within the next hour. OK, let me rewrite that. I have a short and hidden fuse. With friends, I have this amazing patience but with my family, I am a live wire. That's what Mom tells me.

I think that's the case with me and The Boy now. I am patiently letting him give me the Silent Treatment (for no reason) or the Naggy Treatment (what? I thought it was only me who gives the Naggy Treatment) because I know that he will get over it in a bit. This is how it works right?

Right?

Cause I think my fuse is getting shorter by the day. I'm just praying that my patience level is recharged before I hit his next 'emo' session. Because I might just blow. And when that happens, it's not gonna be pretty.

Thing is, we're not fighting. Nor are we in this relationship rut. What rut? It has only been two months and a half. I think I need more time to understand this funny little thing called Love.

P/S: Katy Perry's Hot & Cold is my anthem of the mo.