On thoughts that are not important

It's been so long since I had an entry for this. Maybe it was because I do not have much problems with things I often thought I had.

Now that I am sitting here again, typing the story of my life out for non-existant audiences. But it feels good, it actually feels good that things are out of my mind, thoughts flowing into fingers and fingers onto the keyboard to this anonymous space where no one knows me.

News from abroad had been bad. Not coming back, might be staying on.. things like that. Not something very happy when all you were thinking about was how exciting things will be when this year and a certain month arrives. Oh well.. I know what G means when she says 'You do know that he doesn't feel the same way about you right?' Because I had been telling a few people about this too and I am totally ignorant about it. Or maybe I just didn't want to accept the fact. Maybe. Definitely. Ohwell..

So what? So what? Questions run through my mind and hits the side of my brain with a loud thud. Things never really had worked out for me in a long long time and maybe just one fine day, hopefully, with fingers crossed thing could finally work out the way I would want it to be.

Starting to sound selfish here. Things should always be my way. Of course. I am only human. Selfish little human me says, ' Come back you fool! Even though you'd be here, so near yet so far, come back..'