Pain

Listening to: DJ Shadow - Six Days
Feeling: Weird


Itai

If you're gonna ask if it's painful, I would be lying if I said no.

Hurts like a bitch.

Feels so weird...

Have you ever felt as though you've lost the ability to cry? I'm feeling that now and I feel bloated.

Crap...

Wish me luck!

What's left of me...

Listening to: Mika Nakashima - Cry no more
Feeling: Empty

I am a L-O-S-E-R...

Confirm.

Super Confirmed...

Confirmed a few times edy...

But I shouldn't allow that to bother me... *peasu sign*

But...

Easier said than done.

Sigh

Life is...

Listening to: The sound of silence and a/c
Feeling: Amazed


You know, I've grown up in a lower-middle class family and we never had too much cash to spare. Poor? Sometimes... Happy? When we are not too worried about the big M (Not McDonald's idiots)

To us, money is used to buy essentials like food, clothes (when they are too freaking stretched to the point of no return), books (no story books mind you, the textbook kind) and the occasional treat.

So can you imagine the shock I had to deal with when I saw this?


Picture courtesy of Exofex

Dude, to be totally honest, I am freaking out here. One of those boxes could hold us (my whole family) up for a whole month. Like one commented, 'That's a whole lot of Hermes in one house'. No shit Sherlock.. I suspect even a celeb couldn't afford that much...

No offense to Exofex *check out her blog for more scary pictures of overindulgence* I just couldn't comprehend the amount of money that she must have. It's scary. Please tell me how can people get so freaking rich? I wish she could donate one, just one of those bags to me so I can clear off my credit card bill, my car loan for the month and get me my passport. Sigh... Maybe then I can smoke Malboros again. Donations anyone?

Unfair!

The future

Listening to: Panic! At the Disco - I write sins not tragedies
Feeling: Sleepy


Now that the excitement of me going to HK has died down, I am beginning to think straight. It's gonna be hell of a month again, July. I will be writing another feature because of the trip, plus all the styling stuff that I have to do and plus me taking three days off... I think I might just die this time.

But whatever it is, I shall try to survive and post sometimes. Bitch Chin/Miranda Priestly/Bitch please don't be evil and understand. anonymouswhomiknowisgg don't laugh but I think I might be foregoing some yamcha sessions.

I wanna pick up some freelancing as well to help pay for my uncontrollable spending. Maybe I should try curbing my expensive smoking habit. Tried smoking a cheaper brand (RM5.50 compared to RM7) but I'm still short. In case you've not realized, I've dropped my expensive coffee habit too. Weekends are now spent sleeping around at home.

Sigh... Cutting corners are no fun. But when the need arises and you have to do it, you have no choice. O well... Thinking if I should bring my laptop for this trip, if I am I will definitely update pinkyinthesky.

First overseas assignment

Listening to: Teriyaki Boyz - Be in Tokyo
Feeling: Excited


AHHHHHHHHH!!!!

I am going to Hong Kong! *Jumps around*

I am such a nerd...

*Jumps around somemore*

This is just too cool...

Satoshi *dreamy eyed*

Listening to: Cool Joke - Undo
Feeling: Sleepy


I cannot stress enough, the importance of having a good haircut...

May I present to you Satoshi Tsumabuki


Pre cute days...

And after a life-changing and perhaps, career-altering haircut...


Supa kawaii!

See what a few snips can do for you? Stardom, here I come!

Missing phone

Listening to: Asian Kung-Fu Generation - Kimi to iu hana
Feeling: Hangovered...



Drinking is bad.... Very, very bad. Plus, drinking makes you lose all your senses and you will not feel that your handbag is taken from under the table by cleaners.

That's what happened, we were getting sloshed and my handbag was under the table. As far as I can remember, there was always someone at our table I was on the table 70% of the night, very very drunk. But I can still remember no one could have came over to our table. Suddenly we realized the handbag was gone and we were looking around for it and the security asked if we were missing a bag and brought us to the bag counter.

My bag was ransacked, money all taken out, mine and Nini's hand phone gone. Credit cards and ID still intact thank goodness. I am just pissed off by the fact that the security were trying to push the blame away from them. They kept telling us it has been found for about an hour. I had to stop him and say, 'look, I don't care when you found it but I just want to let you know that no one else apart from the cleaners came near our table.' I sort of wonder if the security people are in it as well.. so suspicious!!!!

OK, lesson learnt. Never go back to Zouk. Security there sucks. Big time.

Sigh... I need a new phone.

What the...

Listening to: Asian Kungfu Generation - Rewrite
Feeling: Blah


I was reading yesterday's newspaper while having my late lunch today and my eyes fell on a short article about how PAS doesn't like having kongsi raya celebrations. Well for those who don't know, kongsi raya occurs when the Hari Raya and Chinese New Year fall around the same dates.

Apparently, they have nothing with people from other races visiting each other but they don't like to share the kongsi raya. HUH? I really don't understand. Someone please elaborate. It's not like we purposely set the dates for the new years to fall near each other. We have shorter holidays because of that. The Chinese New Year is usually around February while the Hari Raya shifts around according to the calendar (or moon, I'm not sure). I would think that this has been a non issue for the longest time so why are they bringing this up now?

Someone please explain before I pull all my hair out from frustration at their stupidity!!!

*stones*

We heart MELAKA!

Listening to: Mika Nakashima - Will
Feeling: Half Alive




We heart Melaka!!!

We decided that work was just too mundane and boring so we decided that we deserve another short trip. Where else can you go that is within a 2 hours drive with fun stuff to do?

Melaka of course! Loads of food, loads of places to take nice pictures at and Jonker Street on the weekend! Fuh~

We started off fresh and early at 10am. (supposedly start out at 7am but then yours truly and someone else woke up late. LOL). Dropped by in Seremban for Hakka Mee and beef brisket noodles at the wet market.


Would have taken pictures of the Hakka Mee too if we hadn't scarfed it down so fast

Hopped into the car to buy the famous Seremban siew pau. We went to the factory ok... Since we're there, we just had to do a few poses before we leave~


Everyone was looking! Cam hos!

After getting them paus we headed towards Melaka for real...

Once we got there, we looked around for a parking so we can walk the whole Jonker Street. Ohman.. it is so jammed! Finally got a place to park. Note: They have a different parking ticket system. It's kinda like Singapore where you have to buy a prepaid ticket and scratch off the date and time you parked.

Went to the famous red tower... Took more pictures...


FunFun with icecream


Scary Nini with icecream


Sarah N likes her icecream


Kst... er.. enjoying his


Pinkity likes to suck

Then we headed over to the opposite side of the road. Very nice beer garden there with good service. Very pleasant people. I highly recommend!


Doing what we do best!

You know... lounging in the sunshine on a Saturday afternoon is one of the bestest things to do!


This is life!


Kst is happiest here!


I am the happiest like this


E-ni-mini-myni-mo


Hanging out yo!

After getting our alco fix, we walked across the river to Jonker Street, where we embarked on our eating spree!


Scenic river

Started off with popiah, then chinese sweets, ping tong wu loh. It's basically fruits dipped in maltose sugar then dried so there is a crunchy sugar shell around the fruits. Nice!


Kiwi ping tong wu loh. Nice!


Greedy GG having them all...

Then moved on to maltose sweets. Damn miss those times when we were much younger and those sweets goes for only 20cents per stick (It's RM1 per stick now). We went through everything that Jonker Street had to offer. And of course no one goes off without trying the famous satay celup


Might seem gross to some of you but its gastronomic delight to others

Nothing fantastic... I don't like fishballs and stuff like that, so maybe that's why I didn't enjoy it as much as the others.

Walked around for a while taking pictures then we left...


Detail of temple roof


Gangstas of Jonker Street

Melaka was alright... It was a great budget trip... Came home with a thinner wallet but fatter stomach. :p

Till next month (Pulau Kapas here we come!)

Birthday Wish

Listening to: Mika Nakashima - Aishiteru
Feeling: Half dead



Happy belated birthday to me and Gem

(Pictures of me and Gem up as soon as I can get my grubby hands on them from Nini)

So many things, so little time

Listening to: Yuna Ito - Endless Story
Feeling: Blog-xited


After posting the previous post, I feel the need to blog. There are so many things to update. Me and Gem's birthday, our trip to Melaka, work, my crazy neighbor, our upcoming trip to Pulau Kapas, ups and downs for the past month and things like that.

I swear when I get the chance I will be uploading all my pictures into flickr.com it will be a long, long post...

But I feel that I need to explain why I had not been blogging for such a long time. And since this involves work, this post will most prolly turn out to be some bitch rant about work. *consider yourself warned*

So I had so busy I hardly had time to think. Ever since last month, I had been in charge of styling all feature columns which will make me, Head Slave? Basically I need to collect all the clothes needed for the people interviews and stuff like that. Now Bitch-Chin before you say anything, I need to stress I have my regular 9 columns (now 11) columns to hand in and do keep in mind that I am handling nearly 5 feature shoots plus 2 shoots that is mine. On top of all that, the returning, the loaning and the shit-picking up. All mine too! Oh if not for the love of my job, I would have killed myself.

Argh... To have time to blog is more like a luxury to me. Sigh.. I would love to have time to sleep, more money to use and more holidays.

I am so tired my bitch juice is running dry. I need another cigarette. Laterz...

Easy come, easy go

Listening to: Mika Nakashima - Glamorous Sky
Feeling: Half dead


Just got back from the office and I am so god damned sleepy but I just have to do this before I drop dead on my bed.

It's been nearly a month since I've last blogged and I would like to announce that FunFun and her boy broke up about 3 days ago. It's fast I know, but I guess that's how relationships that had started off with uncertainty go. Whatever she had experienced, I feel as though I could relate to it. It kind of reminded me of Moo. Ah.. it's just one of those days when you feel nostalgic. I feel like killing him again.

Heard from Kst that day that he is playing the field again. Made me feel like sitting on him while slapping him. Meanwhile, FunFun can wear her nice Nine West stilettos and kick/stomp/pierce/ball his eyes out. Ah.. revenge is a dish best served cold. I like. I feel extremely nostalgic, so sue me!

FunFun will live on definitely, with the help of her sisters... (that means Sarah N, G and me!)

A new beginning

I checked my phone and got a miss call and voicemail from Gem. So I checked the voicemail...

Seems that her boyfriend broke up with her via sms. Shit... that's the worst way to do it. How can someone treat a relationship so lightly to actually break up via sms?

I called her and consoled her. The usual friend thingy...

Sad to say that's all I can do. When it comes to relationships, all friends can do is just to listen to what that person has to say and when they need advise, we give our two cents. After all, we are only bystanders. Nothing more than someone who lends the shoulder to cry on when something happens.

The next day FunFun called and broke the news that she got hitched the guy she's crushing on for a month or so. She was so excited to let the rest know so we planned for another yamcha session later that night at Central Perk.

As expected, when she broke the news everyone was excited and wanted to know the details. To make a long story short (or maybe I'll blog about this later) it's a sweet one with a happy ending...

Well, I guess that's just life... How something ends and something else begins. Whatever it is, at the end of the day love will still prevail and make someone else happy.

Like Ashley Simpson sings 'Love makes the world go round'. (OKOK, Powerpuff Girls sang that one too =.=)

Here's to the L-word.... Cheers!

Blowing the candles yet again

Listening to: Guang Liang - If you still love me
Feeling: PMS-ed

Ekk.. In approximately 12 days it'll be my blog's second birthday! Can't believe that I could actually keep up with blogging for such a long time...

It's safe to say that we've came a long way, pinkyinthesky and me...

And in 9 days I'll turn 24. It's scary how time flies.

When I was in high school, I had always wanted to grow up as fast as I could and work, get money the works... now, I just want to fast forward to retirement (or alternatively rewind to 1982). I know I shouldn't be bitching about this but I am just feeling so darn tired of everything that is happening...

Flashback to me in bright blue (ugly) uniform, I've always thought that I'll be happily married by the time I turn 24. Ekk.. how not true. I am married to my job, that's true. Apart from that, nothing true..

Anyhows, I'll just hang on in there and I am sure that I'll move along, day by day... Oh well...

Happy effing 24th birthday to you too Gem...

We're old

Boobs on girls, according to a car enthusiast

OK, so it started off as a blah day right? But since boss ain't around I was chatting on MSN with Adhi... It's a WTF moment. Read on...


Adhi says:
u know a car?

Adhi says:
if u treat a car like a girl..

Adhi says:
there is a certain size for the that will fit the car...

Adhi says:
(if u treat a car like a girl)

Adhi says:
the rims are like boobies

Adhi says:
too big the rims no good..

Adhi says:
too small the rims look puny

Adhi says:
too big reduce performance

Adhi says:
to small reduce the looks

p-chan ::move along move along like we used to do:: says:
LOLLLLLLLL

OMG... I still can't get over it...

ROTFLMAO

My deepest darkest secret

It's like 5 minutes away from my next shoot... in like, KLPAC and I am still in the office doing this. I have 1 overdue article that I have to like send in 2 weeks ago and I have yet to start working it.

I am just so fucking dog tired... But at least I smell good *sniff sniff Dior Addict 2*

I smell damn fucking good... Yay!

*sniff sniff somemore Dior Addict 2*

I want, I want, I want....

I want to watch more movies

I want Dior Addict 2

I want more money

I want to service my car

I want to wash my car

I want to clean my room

I want more Stila makeup

I want ice cold coffee

I want cheaper petrol

I want a personal assistant aka bag carrier

I want a holiday

I want a white sands, blue seas, beautiful bitch beach front chalet with personal (hot) butler

sigh....

Just another manic Monday. Wish it Sunday

Loneliness in a song

I love this video.

Fort Minor feat. Holly Brooks - Where'd you go





Sing along if you wanna ...

Where'd you go?
I miss you so,
Seems like it's been forever,
That you've been gone.

She said "Some days I feel like shit,
Some days I wanna quit, and just be normal for a bit,"
I don't understand why you have to always be gone,
I get along but the trips always feel so long,
And, I find myself try and stay by the phone,
'Cause your voice always helps me when I feel so alone,
But I feel like an idiot, workin' my day around the call,
But when I pick up I don't have much to say,
So, I want you to know it's a little fucked up,
That I'm stuck here waitin', at times debatin',
Tellin' you that I've had it with you and your career,
Me and the rest of the family here singing "Where'd you go?"

I miss you so,
Seems like it's been forever,
That you've been gone.
Where'd you go?
I miss you so,
Seems like it's been forever,
That you've been gone,
Please come back home...

You know the place where you used to live,
Used to barbeque up burgers and ribs,
Used to have a little party every Hallowe'en with candy by the pile,
But now, you only stop by every once in a while,
Shit, I find myself just fillin' my time,
Anything to keep the thought of you from my mind,
I'm doin' fine, I plan to keep it that way,
You can call me if you find you have somethin' to say,
And I'll tell you, I want you to know it's a little fucked up,
That I'm stuck here waitin', at times debatin',
Tellin' you that I've had it with you and your career,
Me and the rest of the family here singing "Where'd you go?"

I miss you so,
Seems like it's been forever,
That you've been gone.
Where'd you go?
I miss you so,
Seems like it's been forever,
That you've been gone,
Please come back home...

I want you to know it's a little fucked up,
That I'm stuck here waitin', no longer debatin',
Tired of sittin' and hatin' and makin' these excuses,
For while you're not around, and feeling so useless,
It seems one thing has been true all along,
You don't really know what you got 'til it's gone,
I guess I've had it with you and your career,
When you come back I won't be here and you'll can sing it...

Where'd you go?
I miss you so,
Seems like it's been forever,
That you've been gone.
Where'd you go?
I miss you so,
Seems like it's been forever,
That you've been gone,
Please come back home...
Please come back home...
Please come back home...
Please come back home...
Please come back home...

A feel good thing

Listening to: Kelly Clarkson - Beautiful disaster
Feeling: Restless

Thursday was one of those glorious days when time just flies and everything goes right. First, faxed and emailed a ton of people regarding loans I have to do tomorrow and got all of them to come in for my spread. *relieved smile* Then realized that I had featured 4 mom blogs in my May issue so decided to check them out to see if they saw the feature (ok, correction. It was just a review =.= but I fought for it when Boss kinda rejected the idea)

Turns out that 3 of the sites got wind of the feature and bought the magazine and 2 of them seemed pretty happy with it. Only problem with the third mommy was that I absentmindedly *read: idiotically, never check... stupid* put her occupation as a 'full time housewife' when in actual fact she's a full time working mom. Dude... I would have been pissed as well if someone got the facts wrong for a review. For that I apologize again. =.= Gomen!

But you know what? Seeing their reactions towards the article made me feel so god damned proud of what I do. It's one of those things... like suddenly, I feel that all the late nights and hard work carrying bags and bags of clothes turn into a working pleasure. Is that what Seems call 'taking pride in your work? It's just little things like that that would make your day whole. :) And it did, I feel so cheap sometimes. LOL. Thanks for the support, moms *if you're reading this*

Check them out ...

Ashley's mom
Mama to 2 Beas *kawaii!*
Baby Smooches and baby Brendan
All about Zara *When I first logged in I thought it was the fashion brand. That's how I found this blog* P/S: Congrats to Zara's momma!! She's going pregs again!

Post thought: Looking at these blogs made me wanna have babies!!!


Left the office at 6.50 sharp *it's a miracle!!!* and drove like a mad woman to One Utama for a movie. It was pretty good. Better than what I've expected though I still cannot register the fact that Calista Flockhart is no longer a wacky lawyer. If you're bored and have nothing else to watch, this is a good choice. Really can't wait till DaVinci Code opens, that's like the highlight of the summer blockbusters. *really wanna watch Heaven's Bookshop as well.. It's japanese and sappy and it seems like a nice one to watch. Any takers?*

Should try sleeping now. Meeting's at 9am tomorrow and then a full day of loaning for me. Who needs the gym when you're working in a magazine?

An open letter...

Listening to: Damian Rice - Blower's Daughter
Feeling: Agitated... But must chill! Hrmmmmm

I guess what I am going to say is the same thing I've been saying for the longest time. If any of you feel it's too harsh, I think it's because it strikes a cord with you.

So me and my clique, we hang out nearly everyday. It had been so since, like 4 years? It's sort of like this understanding that we call each other out for drinks at Central Perk. It used to be me calling since only me and Nini had cars then and we will pick the rest up.

Fast forward 3 years, and G came back from Down Under and we started working, Sarah S started driving and my job requires me to work late so what we would do is meet up at Central Perk at a certain time to have drinks and dinner. That sounds a lot like a typical episode of Friends right?

Of recent, actually ever since I started working in Her World, I had never really been able (sometimes, be bothered) to call everyone out as Sarah S and Kst got together. I would usually get G to come out for a short smoke (because she stays nearest to me) or if I'm working late, I'll call Sarah S and the rest to come out for a short drink. And I have to admit, I am the most scatterbrained person you can ever find... I forget. So there are some people that I might leave out for drinks.

My gripe is this, if a friend wants to come out for drinks all this friend needs to do is give me a call... I have never said no unless I am in the middle of something or if I am working. I have taken this shit for the longest time, friends saying we don't call. Have these people ever thought that they could have called too?

Take this for example, group goes out for drinks and suddenly someone realized, 'Eh, why so and so not here ar?' and we'll be like, uhoh! Shit happens. There is no reason why we don't call people out.

And I cannot take the fact that people take it for granted that everything that I do I have to get them to come together with me. I wonder how long can I hold their hands? There are times when I just want to have a one-on-one with just one of my friends. So am I obliged to call everyone out? There are times when I want to just be alone... Is there also an obligation that I call everyone out?

Always... it is always this problem. I am just so sick and tired of this.

Gem, if you're reading this, yes I am referring to the post that you wrote about us forgetting you. Please remember of the times when we asked you out all the time and you kept saying no. We had never held anything against you and instead respected your decision to stay home. We kept asking you out then, kept asking you what's wrong and what's up only to be met with silence and denial.

Now that you're with him, you tell us that you do not spend enough time with him. So we let you be... hence not asking you out. If you're free and want to go for drinks or dinner, all you have to do is to just call us. But if I say I am not free, I am sorry because I am really not free. You have been there for me all the time and I will try to do the same for you. But if I cannot fulfill this, it is because of work.

Do not expect me to put friends in front of work, because I'm at the point where I really need try my hardest to make it in my chosen career path. But just to let you know that I will drop anything I have in my hands if you have an emergency to be beside you. That's what friends are for. And all I ask from your part is just to be a little more understanding and pro-active. You want us to hear you out but if you don't take what we have to say to you what's the point of us advising you anyway?

And in times like that I feel that you don't need us to be there to give you advice but you just want us to hear you talk. I have been frustrated at this for the longest time, I think you should know from the reaction I gave you the last time.

Reading your post made me see streaks of selfishness and words without thought, if you want to put it into that way let me remind you of the time you holed yourself up. We did not even once think you have abandoned us, so just because we didn't call you out for drinks once or twice you think we had abandoned you? Think about it...