Listening to: Mika Nakashima - Resistance
Feeling: sleepy!
OK, so today someone told me that he'll give me tips on msn on how to pick up guys... And so...
He says: OK, this is what you should do... When you find your target, pretend flip on your phone and say while walking towards him... "Ah yah, Mun Fen, how ah? How to get there ah? Huh turn left? Aiyoh I am not familiar with this place la... You also ah? How ah?" and 'accidently' bump into him...
Mesays: Err...... *Why am I talking to this person in the first place anyways?*
He says: And then ah, you apologize loe... And then you say to him "Execute me.... Do you know how to get to this place"
Mesays: WHAT? EXECUTE ME?
He says: Ya la... can strike up conversation with him then ma... If it's me I would do it loe...
Mesays: Execute me? *sputters and spits onto screen in silent laughter...*
He says: Ya la... if not so rude ma.. interupt without excusing yourself...
Mesays: *long silence* Why in the world am I taking advice from this single guy anyway???
*dies of laughter... *
Execute me while I laugh my ass off!
Monday, April 13, 2009
Randomly, I post...
Listening to: Blue Sorbet - Satisfy Me
Feeling: I should be asleep!
One week has passed in the new office. Loads of work to be done but feeling great and having load of fun.
I am sleeping early nowadays to get up before 7.30am (I do try, I really do) and trying to balance work, gym, freelance, Japanese classes and sleep.
Hopefully by this time next year I'll be fresh back from Japan and ready to take on another year of hard work and the impending move.
Now while I know this year will be a hard one, I hope with all my strength that we will pass this year safely like every other one.
Freelance is like my second full time job, but hey, if one year of hard work translates to 2 weeks of Japan, I'm all for it.
Fingers crossed and wish me luck.
Wish I have more time to blog too... T.T
Nothing exciting happening anytime soon, but that's great...
Feeling: I should be asleep!
One week has passed in the new office. Loads of work to be done but feeling great and having load of fun.
I am sleeping early nowadays to get up before 7.30am (I do try, I really do) and trying to balance work, gym, freelance, Japanese classes and sleep.
Hopefully by this time next year I'll be fresh back from Japan and ready to take on another year of hard work and the impending move.
Now while I know this year will be a hard one, I hope with all my strength that we will pass this year safely like every other one.
Freelance is like my second full time job, but hey, if one year of hard work translates to 2 weeks of Japan, I'm all for it.
Fingers crossed and wish me luck.
Wish I have more time to blog too... T.T
Nothing exciting happening anytime soon, but that's great...
Saturday, April 04, 2009
Update Already!
Listening to: Utada Hikaru - Merry Xmas Mr. Lawrence - FYI
Feeling: Troubled
It's been such a long time since I've updated my blog. Many things happened like Operation Dream House Pink Walls being starting, went to Bangkok for the first time, started saving for Japan for real and changing jobs.
I know changing jobs at this point of time might seem silly because Bintang is of course a much more stable place, but I cannot take it anymore! It's just super complacent there. I do my work for the week and waiting for another assignment. I feel like I'm gonna be kicked out of the department at someone's whim.
Working on my gut feeling, I took on another job offer as a copywriter and left.
With three weeks of leave, I thought I can bum around but boy was I ever so wrong. With a few freelance jobs under my belt, I felt as thought I was doing more than I was at The Bintang. But it's extra income so I'm not complaining.
Been soul searching whenever I had free time. Not that I had much, but I did.
Realized that friends are not what they seem to be.
Realized that there is money to be earned everywhere but do you have the time and stamina to get them all?
Realized that one person's heaven is another person's hell.
And also, most importantly, what is money compared to having the time to spend with my godson?
This three week holiday did me good and without realizing it, I'm starting work this Monday. I am super glad I made some time to go swimming with baby Caden before Cin and family left for Australia.
That boy is gonna grow up to be a super heartbreaker!
I have yet another BFP shoot tomorrow. Hurt my leg during my Bukit Tabur climb (dramatic drumroll please) when I rolled down on the trek down. Will write about that later. It's 4.30 in the morning and I have to be at BU around 10am~!
Meanwhile, just wanna show off that I got 100% for my Japanese Beginner 1 exam!
More tomorrow~
Feeling: Troubled
It's been such a long time since I've updated my blog. Many things happened like Operation Dream House Pink Walls being starting, went to Bangkok for the first time, started saving for Japan for real and changing jobs.
I know changing jobs at this point of time might seem silly because Bintang is of course a much more stable place, but I cannot take it anymore! It's just super complacent there. I do my work for the week and waiting for another assignment. I feel like I'm gonna be kicked out of the department at someone's whim.
Working on my gut feeling, I took on another job offer as a copywriter and left.
With three weeks of leave, I thought I can bum around but boy was I ever so wrong. With a few freelance jobs under my belt, I felt as thought I was doing more than I was at The Bintang. But it's extra income so I'm not complaining.
Been soul searching whenever I had free time. Not that I had much, but I did.
Realized that friends are not what they seem to be.
Realized that there is money to be earned everywhere but do you have the time and stamina to get them all?
Realized that one person's heaven is another person's hell.
And also, most importantly, what is money compared to having the time to spend with my godson?
This three week holiday did me good and without realizing it, I'm starting work this Monday. I am super glad I made some time to go swimming with baby Caden before Cin and family left for Australia.
That boy is gonna grow up to be a super heartbreaker!
I have yet another BFP shoot tomorrow. Hurt my leg during my Bukit Tabur climb (dramatic drumroll please) when I rolled down on the trek down. Will write about that later. It's 4.30 in the morning and I have to be at BU around 10am~!
Meanwhile, just wanna show off that I got 100% for my Japanese Beginner 1 exam!
More tomorrow~
Wednesday, February 04, 2009
Outside looking in
Popo, if you're looking in on us from above do know that we are not doing well. Do know that shit has hit the fan and do know that we are missing you.
Do know that we loved you all the way till the end and until now.
It's just that we don't show it but that doesn't mean we don't love you. I think you know too and I think you understand.
If they don't then it's ok but it hurts to know that they think you died alone. You did not. Like how you are with us now, we were with you.
Do know that we loved you all the way till the end and until now.
It's just that we don't show it but that doesn't mean we don't love you. I think you know too and I think you understand.
If they don't then it's ok but it hurts to know that they think you died alone. You did not. Like how you are with us now, we were with you.
My December
Listening to: Princess Mononoke soundtrack
Feeling: Is there anything to look forward to anymore?
Dear all,
It's been a long time since I last blogged and boy had it been a crazy one. I think nothing can describe 'crazy' apart from the word shit. This must be as bad as it can get.
First off a friend of mine jumped and died. From what god knows...
Then my grandma's condition worsened. Then two months down the road, she went peacefully in her sleep. Well, at the very least she went in her sleep peacefully.
Then my favourite grand aunty went too.
All this within two months.
Wait, it gets better.
Problems with money, bills, dad and extended family.
Money earned from extra work goes straight somewhere else. I can just forget Japan NOW.
I wonder somehow now if there is a god. And if there is, what did we do to deserve this? I question my very existence.
If this continues, is there even a reason to live anymore? There is nothing to look forward to, nothing to celebrate.
I just feel so damn tired. I hate this part right here...
And I hope the only way is up from now onwards...
Feeling: Is there anything to look forward to anymore?
Dear all,
It's been a long time since I last blogged and boy had it been a crazy one. I think nothing can describe 'crazy' apart from the word shit. This must be as bad as it can get.
First off a friend of mine jumped and died. From what god knows...
Then my grandma's condition worsened. Then two months down the road, she went peacefully in her sleep. Well, at the very least she went in her sleep peacefully.
Then my favourite grand aunty went too.
All this within two months.
Wait, it gets better.
Problems with money, bills, dad and extended family.
Money earned from extra work goes straight somewhere else. I can just forget Japan NOW.
I wonder somehow now if there is a god. And if there is, what did we do to deserve this? I question my very existence.
If this continues, is there even a reason to live anymore? There is nothing to look forward to, nothing to celebrate.
I just feel so damn tired. I hate this part right here...
And I hope the only way is up from now onwards...
Monday, February 02, 2009
25
Just for the sake of updating...
1. I prefer soft pastel pink to just pink.
2. I will drive the extra mile to get to Burger King.
3. My obsession with manga started off with Dragon Ball but somehow I am not too excited to watch the movie version of it.
4. I don't like watching TV.
5. I have a few books waiting to be written.
6. I wish I am connected to the internet 24/7.
7. I wish I have every gadget in the world in my pocket ala Doraemon.
8. Diamonds make me go a little weak in the knees.
9. Pumpkin rawks!
10. I wish to buy a house for my own and convert one of the rooms into a library (with floor length bookshelves please) filled with manga on one side and books on the other. Another room will be turned into a pink shrine.
11. My biological clock is ticking. Just so you know....
12. I love cooking without the veggie peeling and prep work. And I think I can be a pretty darn good cook.
13. I am Japanese in my past live.
14. I don't wake up until after 2pm.
15. I love playing mahjong and can go on and on like a freaking Energizer bunny.
16. I love my family and wish we can be a little more abnormal (like the Addams family or something)
17. I believe in all Chinese hocus pocus.
18. I am low maintenance.I don't eat seafood and buy expensive clothes. I just want to travel the world.
19. I have so much junk in my room I probably need a month to clear it up.
20. I get annoyed when people are repetitive.
21. My dream house has pink walls and an island kitchen with an in-built oven. And (read no.10)
22. I smoke too much for my own good.
23. I only own 6 pairs of shoes. 2 pairs of sneakers, 3 pairs of highheels and 1 pair of flats. Out of the 6, I only wear the flats. EVERY SINGLE DAY! And out of the 6, I only bought 2 of them.
24. I am taking Japanese language class to prepare myself for my homecoming to Japan, where I am SUPPOSED to be born in.
25. I wish I can go on a holiday with my whole family.
1. I prefer soft pastel pink to just pink.
2. I will drive the extra mile to get to Burger King.
3. My obsession with manga started off with Dragon Ball but somehow I am not too excited to watch the movie version of it.
4. I don't like watching TV.
5. I have a few books waiting to be written.
6. I wish I am connected to the internet 24/7.
7. I wish I have every gadget in the world in my pocket ala Doraemon.
8. Diamonds make me go a little weak in the knees.
9. Pumpkin rawks!
10. I wish to buy a house for my own and convert one of the rooms into a library (with floor length bookshelves please) filled with manga on one side and books on the other. Another room will be turned into a pink shrine.
11. My biological clock is ticking. Just so you know....
12. I love cooking without the veggie peeling and prep work. And I think I can be a pretty darn good cook.
13. I am Japanese in my past live.
14. I don't wake up until after 2pm.
15. I love playing mahjong and can go on and on like a freaking Energizer bunny.
16. I love my family and wish we can be a little more abnormal (like the Addams family or something)
17. I believe in all Chinese hocus pocus.
18. I am low maintenance.I don't eat seafood and buy expensive clothes. I just want to travel the world.
19. I have so much junk in my room I probably need a month to clear it up.
20. I get annoyed when people are repetitive.
21. My dream house has pink walls and an island kitchen with an in-built oven. And (read no.10)
22. I smoke too much for my own good.
23. I only own 6 pairs of shoes. 2 pairs of sneakers, 3 pairs of highheels and 1 pair of flats. Out of the 6, I only wear the flats. EVERY SINGLE DAY! And out of the 6, I only bought 2 of them.
24. I am taking Japanese language class to prepare myself for my homecoming to Japan, where I am SUPPOSED to be born in.
25. I wish I can go on a holiday with my whole family.
Monday, January 19, 2009
Wait until when?
Do you know how it feels to know that someone is gone forever when you have always thought she will always be there waiting for you by the door?
she was waiting for us all the time...
I miss you popo. Rest in peace.
she was waiting for us all the time...
I miss you popo. Rest in peace.
Thursday, September 11, 2008
Happy Birthgay ogay...
Listening to: Landy Wen - Zhu Wo sheng Ri Kuai Le
Feeling: Tired & Tired
It's tiring to go through heartbreaks. Not my own, but others. Even though at most times we bystanders try not to get involved, it's inevitable that you're sucked into the middle of that nasty whirlpool of sadness.
Especially if it's someone you're close to. I guess when you're thinking of what to say (gently now...) you imagine you're in their situation too. I've been through too many to know that it's something to stay away from but yet here I am again.
It's painful and I'm afraid.
I should be single forever...
Happy Birthday and Happy Breakup. There is always something better out there that is better. It's just that you don't know it yet.
Feeling: Tired & Tired
It's tiring to go through heartbreaks. Not my own, but others. Even though at most times we bystanders try not to get involved, it's inevitable that you're sucked into the middle of that nasty whirlpool of sadness.
Especially if it's someone you're close to. I guess when you're thinking of what to say (gently now...) you imagine you're in their situation too. I've been through too many to know that it's something to stay away from but yet here I am again.
It's painful and I'm afraid.
I should be single forever...
Happy Birthday and Happy Breakup. There is always something better out there that is better. It's just that you don't know it yet.
Tuesday, September 09, 2008
Fast forward 3 weeks.
Listening to: Clazziquai Project - Fiesta (Daishi Dance remix)
Feeling: Melancholic
No matter how I look at things it is still depressing. How should we handle things? Can I make it for my Mecca? What is the situation now? It's a blank canvas of confusion.
Pushing the depression to the back of my mind (in some cultures, this is often labeled as 'running away from reality') I had some fun over the past three weeks...
We went white water rafting in Gopeng. I promise you this is the best anger management/stress therapy anyone can get. I screamed my heart out and came home as tired as a dog. Had a great night's sleep.
But let me warn you that water might be splashed around. It was fun though me and Fun went with a bunch of people we don't know except for Jae Han. Woots!
I also went for the Complete 5 BMW drive two weeks back.
We drove the X5 and the 5 series, naturally.
Drove on beautiful roads I never knew existed.
Witnessed the beauty of nature from air.
Roughed it out at the Four seasons Langkawi.
Magnificently showered like a queen in the outdoor bath in the room (in the Four seasons)
Did a Paris and Nicole (again) and enjoyed life on a mega yacht.
Had a splashing time on the banana boat.
Watching the beautiful sun set while I enjoyed my dinner.
Cam-whored with my sister one weekend.
Yeap. My life in 3 short weeks. More soon!
Feeling: Melancholic
No matter how I look at things it is still depressing. How should we handle things? Can I make it for my Mecca? What is the situation now? It's a blank canvas of confusion.
Pushing the depression to the back of my mind (in some cultures, this is often labeled as 'running away from reality') I had some fun over the past three weeks...
We went white water rafting in Gopeng. I promise you this is the best anger management/stress therapy anyone can get. I screamed my heart out and came home as tired as a dog. Had a great night's sleep.
But let me warn you that water might be splashed around. It was fun though me and Fun went with a bunch of people we don't know except for Jae Han. Woots!I also went for the Complete 5 BMW drive two weeks back.
We drove the X5 and the 5 series, naturally.
Drove on beautiful roads I never knew existed.
Witnessed the beauty of nature from air.
Roughed it out at the Four seasons Langkawi.
Magnificently showered like a queen in the outdoor bath in the room (in the Four seasons)
Did a Paris and Nicole (again) and enjoyed life on a mega yacht. 
Had a splashing time on the banana boat.
Watching the beautiful sun set while I enjoyed my dinner.
Cam-whored with my sister one weekend.Yeap. My life in 3 short weeks. More soon!
Friday, September 05, 2008
Saturday, August 23, 2008
The Love(s) of My Life
Listening to: Nothing
Feeling: A little sleepy
Don't you just love Friday nights? It's the beginning of a great day. Yes, it's Saturday.
It gives me that tingly feeling that starts from my toes and I crinkle my nose. The feeling always shows. Will be a happy, happy weekend. Caden's full moon party. (Wait for 'em pictures!!!) Going up to the hilltop for drinks again... A full sunday without thinking about anything else! Love, love, love!
Anyway, I am terribly addicted to this game...
I know, I know it's an old one but I only had time to start on it after God Of War... It is terribly idiotic and nonsensical but hey, it makes me sleepy!
I am also addicted to this extremely
Did I say sexy? Hot? Funny, Witty & Intelligent? And he's a MAN?
God, how am I ever gonna get a boyfriend if my idea of a man is Gerry Butler?
And with these blessed images in my head, I will continue Me & My Katamari.
Good night and happy weekend!
Feeling: A little sleepy
Don't you just love Friday nights? It's the beginning of a great day. Yes, it's Saturday.
It gives me that tingly feeling that starts from my toes and I crinkle my nose. The feeling always shows. Will be a happy, happy weekend. Caden's full moon party. (Wait for 'em pictures!!!) Going up to the hilltop for drinks again... A full sunday without thinking about anything else! Love, love, love!
Anyway, I am terribly addicted to this game...
I know, I know it's an old one but I only had time to start on it after God Of War... It is terribly idiotic and nonsensical but hey, it makes me sleepy!
I am also addicted to this extremely
hot
funny
incredibly sexy
MAN.
Did I say sexy? Hot? Funny, Witty & Intelligent? And he's a MAN?
God, how am I ever gonna get a boyfriend if my idea of a man is Gerry Butler?
And with these blessed images in my head, I will continue Me & My Katamari.
Good night and happy weekend!
Monday, August 18, 2008
W... T... F??!!??
Listening to: A/C
Feeling: WTF-ed
I'm sure most Malaysians who stayed home today to catch the finals of the Men's Badminton singles finals would have the same thoughts as I did.
It lasted almost 40 minutes and every single god-damned minute was painful, embarrassing and equally mortifying.
I mean, 40 minutes for a gold medal?
Really, our pizzas took longer to arrive.
On the 17.08.08, 9.30pm every Malaysian sitting in front of the telly had only 3 alphabets in their minds.
It was W... T... F...
Unbelievable.
Feeling: WTF-ed
I'm sure most Malaysians who stayed home today to catch the finals of the Men's Badminton singles finals would have the same thoughts as I did.
It lasted almost 40 minutes and every single god-damned minute was painful, embarrassing and equally mortifying.
I mean, 40 minutes for a gold medal?
Really, our pizzas took longer to arrive.
On the 17.08.08, 9.30pm every Malaysian sitting in front of the telly had only 3 alphabets in their minds.
It was W... T... F...
Unbelievable.
Saturday, August 16, 2008
Thanksgiving
Listening to: Bee Gees - Melody Fair
Feeling: Pensive
Tools of the trade
There are times when I wonder I'm doing the right thing. Am I supposed to be writing or will I do better in sales, advertising, banking, events or branding? But ever since I joined Bintang, I feel like I am on the right track. Thank you. Thank you. Thank you.
Feeling: Pensive
Tools of the tradeThere are times when I wonder I'm doing the right thing. Am I supposed to be writing or will I do better in sales, advertising, banking, events or branding? But ever since I joined Bintang, I feel like I am on the right track. Thank you. Thank you. Thank you.
Friday, August 15, 2008
Berdebar-Berdegup
Listening to: Christina Aguilera - What A Girl Wants
Feeling: OH NO!
OH
sHiT...
It's Happening Again.
Feeling: OH NO!
OH
sHiT...
It's Happening Again.
Friday, August 08, 2008
Wednesday, August 06, 2008
Let's move on people!
Listening to: Guai Tan
Feeling: Happy and fuzzy. In love with baby Caden
Finally got this one out of the way!
Time for a new obsession!
Please say hi to baby Caden!
Only the cutest thing since Hello Kitty!
Will blog soonish...
Feeling: Happy and fuzzy. In love with baby Caden
Finally got this one out of the way!
Time for a new obsession!
Please say hi to baby Caden!
Only the cutest thing since Hello Kitty!
Will blog soonish...
Tuesday, July 29, 2008
The Black & Whites
Listening to: Sarah Bareilles - Love song
Feeling: Funny
I was sitting in our usual mamak place at Hartamas, which we christened '24' because of a certain store in Japan. Long story to that, we'll skip it for another time. So back to the mamak. I just happened to glance up onto the plasma TVs they have hanging by a corner and saw a quote from a certain famous person (I think it was Albert Einstein, bless his soul)
'If you want people to hate you, start changing'
It struck me as funny because it's so true! I wanted to start laughing and crying at the same time how true it was. I remembered when someone once told me that 'maybe Ex Company changed you'. I guess I did and as far as I know, it was a change for the better. I am striding forward in confidence. I am sorry I have left you behind, because this move had been for my own good.
To be very honest, much things had happened over this one month. I've never felt so bad about something like this before. It is hard writing this down because I have been humiliated in the worst possible way.
I've been called a liar, a shit stirrer, fake, a back stabber, immature, irresponsible and many more along that line. I was also told that I 'need so much work on being a human being' and 'so flawed that I don't even realise it'.
It was painful initially because all these were said by a 'friend'. At least I thought he (yes this was said by a guy. Not all bitches need to be female!) was a friend. Little did I know that this 'friend' had hated every moment with me for the past year or so. And yes, all that pent up anger was unleashed within a short week. Imagine the intensity. I never thought anyone could be so angry. And I never thought anyone would hate me that much. At least I know this person's got major anger management problems. And after giving it some thought, I got even more pissed because whatever that had been said is HIM who has been acting the way he said I did! (well, maybe not all but out of 10 maybe 6?)
It was disappointing and hurtful. Maybe I was being like someone who thought the world loved. And me being me 'don't get it when other people don't like them.' In short, I'm being thick faced. I might sound defensive but really...?
I don't know if anyone should feel this way, but I can tell you it really feels as though you're the scum that feeds from the bottom of the sewer. It feels shitty. And if you're only a little depressed, you might have jumped the building or crossed the street with a razor already. The bright side of this? At least I know who my friends and enemies are.
Do you know how betrayal feels then? I know a few people who refused to trust anyone anymore because of past incidences. Whatever happened had left a scar of distrust and bitterness in these people. They might not necessarily talk about what happened but they will never have another friend whom they will tell their deepest darkest secrets to anymore.
Like I said, I never understood why and I never thought it would happen to me. It's because I've got such good friends. Right. Or so I thought. I feel lucky because I still have friends who did and still will stick by me thick and thin and will give me a slap in the face whenever needed.
What I didn't know that there are also some people that are hypocritical and selfish. I am not gonna be nasty about what happened. I will just simply fade away from their lives.
Maybe some people might think that by writing about this in my blog might garner some sympathy votes, let me tell you now that I don't need them. Letting off steam on my blog is something that I can and will do all the time. I will not sugar coat or water down my feelings. I type with my eyes closed with my heart.
From now onwards I will not care what people I don't care about think about me. If you like me, smile and say hi once in a while. If you don't fuck off. The line is clear. Let's not pretend to play friends and maliciously talk about someone the moment back is turned. Let's be honest about our feelings. At least I was. At least I didn't use anyone as last resort, as a communication tool, as the link to things lost...
Just leave me alone. I need to rid myself of poison from my life.
There are just too many things I want to talk about here. But what's the point in explaining? Go figure...
Feeling: Funny
I was sitting in our usual mamak place at Hartamas, which we christened '24' because of a certain store in Japan. Long story to that, we'll skip it for another time. So back to the mamak. I just happened to glance up onto the plasma TVs they have hanging by a corner and saw a quote from a certain famous person (I think it was Albert Einstein, bless his soul)
'If you want people to hate you, start changing'
It struck me as funny because it's so true! I wanted to start laughing and crying at the same time how true it was. I remembered when someone once told me that 'maybe Ex Company changed you'. I guess I did and as far as I know, it was a change for the better. I am striding forward in confidence. I am sorry I have left you behind, because this move had been for my own good.
To be very honest, much things had happened over this one month. I've never felt so bad about something like this before. It is hard writing this down because I have been humiliated in the worst possible way.
I've been called a liar, a shit stirrer, fake, a back stabber, immature, irresponsible and many more along that line. I was also told that I 'need so much work on being a human being' and 'so flawed that I don't even realise it'.
It was painful initially because all these were said by a 'friend'. At least I thought he (yes this was said by a guy. Not all bitches need to be female!) was a friend. Little did I know that this 'friend' had hated every moment with me for the past year or so. And yes, all that pent up anger was unleashed within a short week. Imagine the intensity. I never thought anyone could be so angry. And I never thought anyone would hate me that much. At least I know this person's got major anger management problems. And after giving it some thought, I got even more pissed because whatever that had been said is HIM who has been acting the way he said I did! (well, maybe not all but out of 10 maybe 6?)
It was disappointing and hurtful. Maybe I was being like someone who thought the world loved. And me being me 'don't get it when other people don't like them.' In short, I'm being thick faced. I might sound defensive but really...?
I don't know if anyone should feel this way, but I can tell you it really feels as though you're the scum that feeds from the bottom of the sewer. It feels shitty. And if you're only a little depressed, you might have jumped the building or crossed the street with a razor already. The bright side of this? At least I know who my friends and enemies are.
Do you know how betrayal feels then? I know a few people who refused to trust anyone anymore because of past incidences. Whatever happened had left a scar of distrust and bitterness in these people. They might not necessarily talk about what happened but they will never have another friend whom they will tell their deepest darkest secrets to anymore.
Like I said, I never understood why and I never thought it would happen to me. It's because I've got such good friends. Right. Or so I thought. I feel lucky because I still have friends who did and still will stick by me thick and thin and will give me a slap in the face whenever needed.
What I didn't know that there are also some people that are hypocritical and selfish. I am not gonna be nasty about what happened. I will just simply fade away from their lives.
Maybe some people might think that by writing about this in my blog might garner some sympathy votes, let me tell you now that I don't need them. Letting off steam on my blog is something that I can and will do all the time. I will not sugar coat or water down my feelings. I type with my eyes closed with my heart.
From now onwards I will not care what people I don't care about think about me. If you like me, smile and say hi once in a while. If you don't fuck off. The line is clear. Let's not pretend to play friends and maliciously talk about someone the moment back is turned. Let's be honest about our feelings. At least I was. At least I didn't use anyone as last resort, as a communication tool, as the link to things lost...
Just leave me alone. I need to rid myself of poison from my life.
There are just too many things I want to talk about here. But what's the point in explaining? Go figure...
Thursday, July 24, 2008
No Promises
Listening to: ZzzZzZZ
Feeling: Abit sein la!
Hmm when was the last time I blogged? Man... time flies when you're having fun for real! Many things happened. Again I promise tobitch blog about it when time comes.
Having a ball at my new workplace. I really like working at Bintang. I do my work, I finish, I go home.
I am turning into some sort of a workaholic. I wanna save save save money and show some people that I am capable or ya know, even more capable than any of them can ever be.
Unhappy times, but when the going gets tough, the tough gets going!
Am looking forward to our August holiday in the highlands. It will be 3 days worth of not doing anything.
Meanwhile Aunty Jackie, Victor & Nicholas' are back from Holland. Can't remember when was the last time they were here.
It's gonna be a crazy week again! It's a 4 story weekend!
More soon!
P/s: Guess who is doing manga reviews? *^-^*
Feeling: Abit sein la!
Hmm when was the last time I blogged? Man... time flies when you're having fun for real! Many things happened. Again I promise to
Having a ball at my new workplace. I really like working at Bintang. I do my work, I finish, I go home.
I am turning into some sort of a workaholic. I wanna save save save money and show some people that I am capable or ya know, even more capable than any of them can ever be.
Unhappy times, but when the going gets tough, the tough gets going!
Am looking forward to our August holiday in the highlands. It will be 3 days worth of not doing anything.
Meanwhile Aunty Jackie, Victor & Nicholas' are back from Holland. Can't remember when was the last time they were here.
It's gonna be a crazy week again! It's a 4 story weekend!
More soon!
P/s: Guess who is doing manga reviews? *^-^*
Thursday, June 19, 2008
Tired Update
Listening to: Leo Ku - Love Song Medley 2008
Feeling: Tired
Loads of things happened throughout the span of two weeks. In fact, too many things happened.
I've lost a friend and stayed up too much for my own good. Now I'm feeling slightly sick. It's only a matter of time before I totally KO.
Will update when I get more sleep.
Feeling: Tired
Loads of things happened throughout the span of two weeks. In fact, too many things happened.
I've lost a friend and stayed up too much for my own good. Now I'm feeling slightly sick. It's only a matter of time before I totally KO.
Will update when I get more sleep.
Thursday, June 12, 2008
I self-tag
Listening to: Jets - Look what you've done
Feeling: Lolichin
Because I tidak malu I have decided to self-tag from ABC's blog about 8 totally random facts about myself.
Why?
Because I thick-faced and am procrastinating YET again... And so here we go...
1. I have a strange obsession on frogs
For some unknown reasons, I've been buying green and frog dolls. Don't you think they are so damn cute in their own ways? Their big buggy eyes. That silly smile on their face. But not the real thing la... The doll ones are so darn cute! Maybe hor, it's because I hope that one day I kiss one of my froggies they will turn into a prince. Hahaha
2. I don't think Brad Pitt is hot
I know some people will shoot me for this one but really, what's so hot about damn Brad Pitt? Apart that his wife is white smoking hawtness, he's just, well, Brad Pitt... Now, Tomoya Nagase is hotness. Guess beauty is indeed in the eye of the beholder.
3. I heart LAVENDER
My favourite bath gel of all time is Palmolive's Aromatherapy in purple. Hearts! I will shower twenty times a day if work permits because I just adore the smell of lavender you get the moment you step out of the shower. Heart heart heart
4. I love reading crime stories, especially if they have tons of graphic description of the murder
Call me sick but I really enjoy shit like that. My favourite past time if I have nothing to do in the office is logging on to www.crimelibrary.com. Or if there's something gross/gory reported in the papers, I HAVE to google it for more information.
5. I can't live without gadgets, Wikipedia, the internet and my car
I NEED to go out everyday even if it's for a short drive. I have to touch my laptop & PsP before I sleep, if not I cannot sleep. I wiki anything that I don't understand and continue reading all the other links linked to that article. A short search might set me back an hour or two reading things I didn't really need to know (aka, Useless Information). I get scared when my cell has no signal or is about to run out of battery.
6. I wanna buy my own house
And do whatever I want, like, run around the house naked! OK, sorry, TMI...
7. I own too much accessories
I used to buy tons and wear them too. Now, it's collecting dust and I think I have only worn a quarter of it. And if I change them everyday, I might be able to wear a new set everyday for a month without repeating them.
8. I own too little clothes
I can only get through a week without repeating them. I suck. I should buy more clothes but plus size clothing sucks. Ugh!
OK, so this 'random' facts thing wasn't too random after all but I'm just totally procrastinating. Back to work now!
Feeling: Lolichin
Because I tidak malu I have decided to self-tag from ABC's blog about 8 totally random facts about myself.
Why?
Because I thick-faced and am procrastinating YET again... And so here we go...
1. I have a strange obsession on frogs
For some unknown reasons, I've been buying green and frog dolls. Don't you think they are so damn cute in their own ways? Their big buggy eyes. That silly smile on their face. But not the real thing la... The doll ones are so darn cute! Maybe hor, it's because I hope that one day I kiss one of my froggies they will turn into a prince. Hahaha
2. I don't think Brad Pitt is hot
I know some people will shoot me for this one but really, what's so hot about damn Brad Pitt? Apart that his wife is white smoking hawtness, he's just, well, Brad Pitt... Now, Tomoya Nagase is hotness. Guess beauty is indeed in the eye of the beholder.
3. I heart LAVENDER
My favourite bath gel of all time is Palmolive's Aromatherapy in purple. Hearts! I will shower twenty times a day if work permits because I just adore the smell of lavender you get the moment you step out of the shower. Heart heart heart
4. I love reading crime stories, especially if they have tons of graphic description of the murder
Call me sick but I really enjoy shit like that. My favourite past time if I have nothing to do in the office is logging on to www.crimelibrary.com. Or if there's something gross/gory reported in the papers, I HAVE to google it for more information.
5. I can't live without gadgets, Wikipedia, the internet and my car
I NEED to go out everyday even if it's for a short drive. I have to touch my laptop & PsP before I sleep, if not I cannot sleep. I wiki anything that I don't understand and continue reading all the other links linked to that article. A short search might set me back an hour or two reading things I didn't really need to know (aka, Useless Information). I get scared when my cell has no signal or is about to run out of battery.
6. I wanna buy my own house
And do whatever I want, like, run around the house naked! OK, sorry, TMI...
7. I own too much accessories
I used to buy tons and wear them too. Now, it's collecting dust and I think I have only worn a quarter of it. And if I change them everyday, I might be able to wear a new set everyday for a month without repeating them.
8. I own too little clothes
I can only get through a week without repeating them. I suck. I should buy more clothes but plus size clothing sucks. Ugh!
OK, so this 'random' facts thing wasn't too random after all but I'm just totally procrastinating. Back to work now!
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