Thursday, July 28, 2005

'I... uh, dunno'

Listening to: Kelly Clarkson - Because of you
Feeling: Angry

I feel annoyed. And I do not really know why. Once upon a time, whenever a MSN message pops up, I eagerly check to see if it was SD6, but now whenever I see it's him I get angry. Don't ask why. Maybe because I did not want to feel sad. Maybe that is why.

I hate this feeling. I hate this feeling. I hate this feeling.I hate this feeling. I hate this feeling. I hate this feeling.I hate this feeling. I hate this feeling. I hate this feeling.I hate this feeling. I hate this feeling. I hate this feeling.I hate this feeling. I hate this feeling. I hate this feeling.I hate this feeling. I hate this feeling. I hate this feeling.I hate this feeling. I hate this feeling. I hate this feeling.I hate this feeling. I hate this feeling. I hate this feeling.

Please do not tell me about what you're doing now. Please do not tell me about how you want to go for movies with her. Please do not tell me how long you had talked to her over the phone. Please do not tell me about how funny she is. Please, please, please...

I hope I won't cry now.
I am not supposed to.
I am not supposed to be sad even.
I don't want to see you. I want to see you. I don't want to hear from you. I am waiting beside the phone to hear your voice. I don't want to go. I love to go. No No No No No. Yes Yes Yes Yes.

I hate you!!!
But I... still do love, no, care for you.
Go away before I really do hate you...

3 comments:

ThrO192 said...

I don't know the whole story. But, if you have an ex who is making an issue out of the things that he is doing with a new flame then he is an ass. Period. I lived with a girl for two years and was involved with her for three. She is remarried and he and I hate each other. I still talk to her frequently, but the reason that it works is because I don't talk about who I am with unless she asks and then I generalize. She does the same. No matter how long you are apart you will never want to hear about the new person in their life. If I was English I would call that "Bad Form". Hope you feel better.

Pinkity said...

Thanks. But it's not an ex. :) But yeah, I do agree with your theory of generalizing who you're with once you've broken up with this person because I can see the effects of being too honest and being too 'buddies' with your ex. One of my friend got stuck with a boyfriend with a jealous and possesive ex. Another one of my friend was once the jealous and possesive ex.
Being in a relationship is hard. Sigh.. Being not in a relationship is also hard. Erk

chinyew said...

one really-really-really good advise. and i swear to you that it will work! seriously.

delete him off yr msn.

it really-really works.

believe me. i'm the guy from
the other side of the fence.

and its really-really greener!

-chinyew